i've said it before but....loser4loser whennnnnn. loser4loser where both guys are sorta awkward and unsure.........where they're both stupid horndogs who are a litte pathetically desperate but its ok cause they can help eachother out..............losers who are watching a lame movie and both get hard at some dumb erotic scene and palm over eachothers pajama pants......losers who have stupid perverted kinks and will embarrass and tease one another for them even though they both are equally gross.....
i love you transgender internet perverts thank you for existing. if it werenāt for transgender internet perverts iād have thought i was an unloveable freak forever
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Hi. Iām of the opinion that people donāt eroticize transmasculinity enough.
People sexualize trans men and mascs, but not our transitions. So long as we fit a very narrow threshold of androgynous twinkiness, itās totally fine to be sexualized and objectified. But any transmasc who isnāt a twink? A transmasc who doesnāt meet the appropriate standards of thinness, whiteness, and ambiguous tomboy-ish masculinity? Or who, God forbid, isnāt exclusively a bottom and submissive? Itās as if we donāt exist.
Trans men and mascs are sexualized for the ways we refrain from transition. A transmasc can bind, wear menās jeans, and have short hair, and still be acceptably fuckable. But I know too many guys who were shamed by their āsupportiveā partners for wanting to go on testosterone, because it would make them too masculine, ruin their attractiveness. Countless transmascs are told their goals for transition are disgusting, especially when it comes to phalloplasties and other types of bottom surgery. Too many of us have been shamed out of HRT, top surgery, bottom surgery, or even exploring ourselves in diverse sexual ways, because wider society tells us that transmasculinity taken ātoo farā is destined to make us ugly and unfuckable.
Considering there are a lot of places today that continue to treat women and people assumed to be women as though their physical appearance and fuckability is the most important thing about them, itās no wonder that so many transmascs are susceptible to this fearmongering. Being an unattractive woman gets you criticized by your family, your friends, your partners and potential partners, your co-workers, and confidently rude strangers. Especially if the transmasc in question was considered a ābeautiful young ladyā before coming out, why would they want to transition? Even if it would make them feel happier internally, their external life would get materially worse. Shouldering dysphoria against this burden sounds like a good optionāa better option, even, than becoming unworthy of affection for being who you are.
There are plenty of ways to combat this regressive, transphobic attitude. Overthrowing patriarchal and white supremacist standards of gender and sexuality, of course, but thatās not something we can do overnight. For the purposes of this post, Iām going to advocate for roachification as a way to reclaim transmasculinity and eroticize our transitions like we deserve.
Now, like a lot of terms trans people have reclaimed for our sexualities, the idea of roachification started as a transphobic term to describe āwhat happensā to someone going through a transmasculine transition. If you feel like being upset, you can go on Urban Dictionary and find a definition neatly sketched out that reiterates all of the above-described fearmongering in a single sentence:
āthe process of a ftm or trans masculine person metamorphisizing from a beautiful girl to the most disgusting, vile, greasy, horrific boy there ever has been, in extreme cases; an incel.... or sid from skins.ā
Even disregarding the transphobia inherent in the idea that an unhappy but ābeautifulā cis girl, is more valuable than a happy but ādisgustingā transmasc, I think this person is just making up a strawtrans to get mad at. The incel accusation makes me laughāthe famously open, accepting, gender expansive incel community. The community of cishet men who are so misogynistic they disparage the idea of being kind to anyone they think is a woman. Just overflowing with trans people, Iām sure.
Getting away from the transphobia, how does one reclaim the idea of roachification? I believe it lies in accepting every part of transmasculine transition, including the parts that may, actually, be perceived as ugly, gross, and/or a downgrade from a previously-attained cis womanhood. Allow me to explain.
Fundamentally, anyone going on any sort of HRT is going through puberty a second time. Itās being a teenager again, which is why so many trans people go through a sort of āsecond adolescenceā if they transition later in life. You get to discover yourself all over again, and thatās a beautiful thing! But, just like being a teenager, there are things that make you feel weird, uncomfortable, or insecure.
Considering testosterone here: your skin breaks out, you gain weight, you grow hair in places youāre not used to, you get hungry, and you get horny. Speaking only for myself, I had to up my snack budget because I was destroying family-sized bags of chips by myself. I would wake up in the morning, masturbate, go to work, masturbate as soon as I clocked out, and then one more time right before bed (okay sometimes I still do that). My skin was already oily, but itās greasy now. Thereās the inside joke in that the hair on your ass grows in before T even touches your facial hairāand when it does grow in, it can be patchy, uneven, and weird looking. Your voice cracks make you sound like youāre 13 and your body odor smells way stronger. Transition can be awkward and uncomfortable, and, yes, you might even feel a little gross.
But why is that bad? The journey to becoming more of who you are might be a little messy, but I think thatās a perfect excuse to play in the mud.
Consider roachification as the gendered opposite of bimbofication. For a transmasc who is moving from a status of ābeautiful young ladyā to āgross, sweaty manā it can be hard to release the fear of losing that conditional acceptance, but a great way to combat that fear is to indulge in it. Lean in and explore the āuglyā parts of transition. It might turn out that you like slouching around with a hand in your pants, gorging yourself on snacks and your brain-melting media of choice, throwing on whatever you picked out of the laundry pile this morning, and forgetting to shower for a few days. Youāll realize you kinda stink. Maybe you like that, too.
Roachification is about playing in the mud. Itās about reveling in the behaviors that are supposed to disgust you. Itās about the hedonism of the base instinct, doing what your body desires with absolutely no higher functioning involved. Itās the idea of moving from an uptight, controlled appearance that you canāt relax into, even when youāre alone, into the kind of vulgar bliss that comes from sitting in the same spot all day and rubbing one out without washing your hands. Your dick is calling and thatās the only thing that matters, after all. And when youāre done, you sit in your dry cum for a few more hours before getting up to clean offāand, hell, might as well jerk off in the shower while youāre at it.
If transition turns you back into a teenager, roachification is about embracing your inner teenage boy who has full run of his parentsā basement. Itās about being sloppy, gross, horny, and not caring that youāre acting that way. The greatest balm to any insult is being able to say ālol, so what?ā and roachification puts the power back in your hands. To enjoy being disgusting, vile, greasy, and horrific. To become what you always feared, and realize you like it better.
Obviously, I didnāt come up with the idea of roachification myself. I am not the first person to make any of these observations, and I will certainly not be the last, but the longer Iāve sat with these thoughts, the truer they feel to me. The more I think about this kink, the more important it is to me.
I love roachification as a way to show a transmasculine person finally being able to relax out of femininity. Not just leaving it behind, but being too lazy to pick it back up once the masculinity ātakes over.ā Now that youāre comfortable enough to be lazy, dirty, and self-indulgent, why would you ever go back? I love a transmasc leaning into who they areāincluding, perhaps especially, if who they are is smelly and sweaty and hedonistic.
As for myself? I love my transmasculine transition and everything it does to my body. I even love the things I thought Iād hate, because the fearmongering got to me too. It was only by transitioning did I realize just how wrong that transphobic āadviceā was, so now Iām more than happy to indulge in my āugliness.ā Being smelly, greasy, hairy, and horny has never felt more liberating, and itās only going to āget worseā by these peopleās standards. Frankly, I welcome it.
Transmasculine sexuality shouldnāt be confined to the narrow box mainstream sexuality has decided it needs to fit in. Trans men and mascs deserve to become who we are, unapologetically, and every aspect of transmasculinity deserves to be captured in perverted amber. We deserve to make our transitions as erotic as we damn well please, regardless of who jumps out of the woodwork to complain that we were prettier when we shaved. We deserve to be human beings, with the full range of beauty and ugliness that can be attributed to any person.
At time of writing, Iām still early on in my transition, just over a year on testosterone. Iām growing hair and a bigger clit and a bottomless stomach. I hope I get even more disgusting by next year.
im not on x and reallly don't wanna go back lol </3 would u mind cross posting here sorry
I canāt post nsfw content on here because I donāt want to get this account suspended šāāļø Iāve gotta be a good boy !!!! If youāre ever interested in something specific please dm me:0) Iām definitely going to be posting more to fansly and Reddit sooooooon, I do not trust X to have the majority of my content šāāļøšāāļøšāāļøšāāļø
Summer coming up means everyone should be getting perverted in the woods
Everyone should be chasing a nerdy guy through the woods before catching and pouncing on him, and then wrestling one another to get on top
Then you can win and make fun of him for being so red and how itās sooo obvious he wants you to touch him and then you grind against each other right there in the woodsā¦ and let him whine and drool into your shoulder
losers who can't help themselves but get hard around you. losers who have to put a pillow on their lap to hide how hard they got. losers who sniff your hair when they hug you. losers who steal your panties to jack off with later. losers who can't act normal around you because they are thinking about their face between your legs.
This sounds so stupid but Iāve really been liking the idea of hugging latelyā¦ cause it can be used in so many interesting ways
Hugging as sort of a pitying act, like youāre comforting someone from how humiliated they are even though you were the one who humiliated them..
Or if you happen to be really touch starved and donāt receive physical (or any) affection like ever, a long hug could genuinely have you on the brink of cumming your pants, your completely imprisoned by someoneās arms and youāre sort of in this inescapable bubble of their warmth and scent šµāš«šµāš«šµāš« šµāš«it can be very overwhelming
ur post where ur in the muzzle and getting high is so hot oh my god
Thank yew ! š Thereās a lot more muzzle tokes on my X š Just putting that out there everybody .. I need to post more on here for sure tho !!! That gif is being ate tf by all the pathetic puppies
thinking about a boy inviting me to hang out with him and his friends with the intention of getting me high and using me as a party favor. one of them feeding me hits and fingering me idly while watching two of the others playing a fighting game. leaving me squirming on the floor with a boot on my cunt while they all play mariokart. turning me into a dumb needy puppy for their own amusement. laughing at me as i whine from the foot of the bed because theyre all touching each other and i just have to watch like a good boy
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Oh wow!!!! Iām hard.
Okay and also I get my boy to finish all over you!! ā¤ļø Use you as a cum rag !
Being a huge dick head douche bag and jerking off another guy and telling you how you need to prove youāre chill if you see yourself in my bed with us any time soon !
Only trained dogs get jerked off like bros !!!! Youāve gotta prove ur worth šāāļø
Shiiettt now I need a puppy boy to step on and drag my shoes all over while I game, also maybe kick a lil bit .
