look asshole! youre doing this to yourself!!

do not follow if you know me irl i trust you to respect my fucking privacy

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ever feel like your completely alone in the world ?

me too

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how do you tell anyone anything

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How do u tell some one to stop fucking touching you

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how do u tell some one that their venting and emotional unloading is unhealthy for u and makes your fuckin. Chest hurt

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I am starting to believe that I will never over come this strange feeling of displacement that is always knocking in my core

And maybe I always believed that it was because we, as space fare-ers, are always intrinsically displaced that I should feel this way

But still some times it feels less like I am an entity who’s lost their home and more like I was never meant to have one in the first place

Which is kind of silly

When you think about it

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In a mood to be fuckin RUDE to people. What the fuck are you doing honestly like eatvshit lololol

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anyway I started shaking in the middle of my math quiz it’s great and I love being alive

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Like no that’s not what I want I just want to like,,, put it out there. Into the aether. Don’t fucking,,, respond to it or acknowledge it

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I gotta stop venting on my Instagram story then people ask me about it

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I can’t fucking,,,, talk to you I can’t fucking do it all I do is listen to your problems and a fucking ocean of negativity I kno I only respond in the same couple of ways but Jesus maybe return the fucking favor maybe I can see if it’s actually comforting or not

Every time I try to talk abt how the fuck I’m feeling if it’s shitty I’m just alienated until I shut up and u get to go on abt yr own shitty life again

wtf am I a fucking dumpster for your neuroticism???? And u fucking complain abt how u feel that yr becoming distant with the people around you how many fucking times have I tried to fucking leave you and just stop

I’m so perpetually fucking lonely and ignorable that I just keep crawling back??? It’s fucking bullshit and I fucking hate it and I still fucking hate you some times

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I need my friend to stop fucking looking at me when I'm obviously upset just stop just leave me alone please for the love of god your eyes feel like fucking hot irons

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Why do I shy away from even the slightest genuine emotion?

Just curious

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This is a fucking bop

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I keep thinking about how some one who I don't know very well but am almost-friends with said that I appeared as if I hadn't given a fuck since the day I was born. And he said it like a good thing like nothing phases me but he also used the term "detached" after I offered in and I dunno how I feel about that. I kind of am but like. Hm.

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Lately affection is scalding