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ronan morgenstern // 17 // son of lucifer Am I out of my head ?? Am I out of my mind ?? If you only knew the bad things I like. Don't think that I can explain it. What can I say, it's complicated. Don't matter what you say. Don't matter what you do. I...

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i would say he's a great friend if he didn't stop hitting on me aND DENYING HOW HE FEELS FOR SOMEONE ELSE

“ the only thing being denied here is the obvious chemistry we have, angel face. ”

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illyriadx:

“ ah, so this happens a lot, does it ?? ” she asked, amused as she looked from ronan to the cats. still trying to figure her thoughts out, illyria decided to focus on the cats more, talking to them separately. “ how many doors have you come to, hmm ?? waiting for him to let you in ?? ” she whispered. one hand cradled the cat sleeping against her chest, and another picked one up so she could kiss it. “ i’m no cat-whisperer, ronan morgenstern…i just listen. ” her heart was slowing now, comforted some what by the extra number of souls in the room. it was always strange and warm when it was just her and ronan. she noticed him inch closer to her and her heart beat fast again.

ronan shook his head. “ that’s the thing. none. ” he pointed at the little group. “ they don’t follow me. they wait at my door. as in, they sit there in front of my dorm room until i come back. ” he huffed as a tabby wiggled it’s way under his harm, and held himself back from making a comment about how she was kissing the wrong cat. “ well, they liked you enough to find your dorm. i’m sticking to the cat whisperer thing.” he teased. ronan didn’t move much closer, just enough so that his knee touched her. close enough for some contact, but not close enough that she could pull away if she wanted to. 

[gnossienne]

[books-are-better]

When he felt her fingers, he flinched; he had not been touched with such gentleness since his childhood. He was no stranger to women and had felt their hands on all parts of his body, but her touch made him feel like he belonged some place.

Melina Marchetta, Finnikin of the Rock (via lindseymorgan)

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illyriadx:

illyria just shook her head once, giving him a knowing look. the cats would not be okay. as he stood up to let them in, illyria gathered the pillow to her chest, hoping to dull the sound of her heart, worrying he could hear it. but as soon as the cat came bounding towards her, she dropped the pillow altogether and her face split into a wide grin. “ hello, darling… ” she whispered, cooing at it as she let it jump on her, burrowing against her chest. illyria just chuckled at ronan’s pout. she beckoned more cats to come to her. would ronan try to kiss her again ?? would she let him ?? “ how did they find you ?? ”

he pouted back at her, furrowing his eyebrows and looking playfully put-out. he rolled his eyes at the cat, but smiled softly at the sight anyways. “ dunno. they don’t usually follow me. they just wait for me outside my door most times.” he sat across from illyria, reaching over to pet the nearest cat. he tried to not focus on the fact that he came very close to what he really wanted, but ultimately failed. “ i suppose the cat whisperer strikes again. you’ve even got them finding you now. ” he joked, inching closer to her as he scooped a persian into his lap.

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illyriadx:

suddenly she knew why her brother had cut out his heart, and their father before them. she knew exactly why. her own heart was beating so fast she feared it would jump out by itself. the beating overtook her senses, and for two seconds it was only her heart and ronan’s touch. she caught her breath when she heard the mroooow, her eyebrows furrowing at the ridiculousness of the situation. but it helped that he felt even closer now, their foreheads touching. “ no, ” she whispered back, “ they need you. ” she leaned back, tilting her head to the door with an amused smile.

ronan bit his lip for a moment as he came to a rather terrifying realization. he had thought that perhaps he was just infatuated with illyria as someone he couldn’t have. that the pull that made his friendship with her different from his one with viviette was something simple. but sitting here, inches away from her, and feeling like he wouldn’t mind not doing this with anyone else ever made him think differently. and the thought terrified him. “ they’d be okay.... ” he said, but he let her pull back, and stared at her for a moment, genuinely considering just leaving the cats to fend for themselves and seeing if she would let him kiss her for real. eventually, he stood up with a exasperated groan to open the door. the cats shuffled in and he pouted, looking pointedly as one made it’s way straight for illyria. “ yeah, this is your fault, llyria. ”

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ptremaine:

her jaw dropped completely, the innuendo taking three seconds for her to process. “ oh, you cruel bastard, ” she whispered. “ every single prince you’ve been with, i want them, ” penelope demanded, like she expected a list on the spot. she crossed her arms, throwing her own personal tantrum as she realised that ronan the cat had already done more than she had hoped for herself. she had to get started as soon as possible. “ only with you. and that’s the old me. there’s not much space for fun on the isle but now that i’m here, i’ll be new, ” she smiled. “ i won’t forget you when i’m famous, cat. ”

he raised an eyebrow, letting out a delighted laugh. “ why ?? so you can have my leftovers ?? ” he grinned. “ maybe i don’t even remember their names. they’re not that important to me, you know. ” of course, he did remember them. one of  them still blushed anytime he saw ronan. but, of course, he wasn’t telling penelope anything. “ well, aren’t i lucky then ?? but feel free to have as much fun as you want. i can’t wait to see which auradonian hates the kind of fun it is you get up to while you’re here. ” he matched her smile. “ in fact, please do. i am perfectly content with you moving on from the thought of little ole me. don’t miss me too much though. ”

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@illyriadx

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illyriadx:

“ i don’t know what’s coming either… ” illyria caught that flicker of his eyes. she felt her face heat up, and she was sure there was an undeniable pink on her cheeks. “ this future’s too close for me to see, ” she whispered, just as quiet as ronan. when he told her she held sway, she smiled. illyria found herself closing her eyes and leaning closer, until she could feel her nose touch his –

he smiles the biggest grin when he sees her face, before he’s also ducking down. he can feel her breath against his lips, and there’s the faintest brush of his lips against hers, just barely there when - “ mrooooow. ” comes loudly from just outside the door. ronan pulls back, just a centimeter, in surprise. with his eyes still closed, he rests his head against illyria’s with a sigh. “ ....i could leave them. ” he whispers, just cacophony of scratches begin.

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dizzytrmaine:

dizzy flopped down next to him immediately and threw her arms around him, grinning. “good. i’d hate to run to a place only to have the people be wors than what i ran from. “ she said. “so? is auradon everything i hoped it would be? and how’ve you been? i wanna hear everything!!”

he grinned, wrapping his arm over her shoulder to pull her into a hug. “ yeah, no one is touching you while your here. not on my watch, you know ?? ” he smiled. “ probably just as grand as you’d imagine. there’s been some problems, and that’s mostly because the adults here are mostly incompetent. and i’ve been good. could be better, which it is now that little miss sunshine here is here to brighten my days. ” 

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ptremaine:

“ as if you’ve been with princes. you have not been with princes !! ” she said, the shock (and envy) apparent on her face. “ a sugar baby, i like that, ” penelope smiled, the compliment making her forget almost everything he said before that. she brushed her hair over her shoulder, a daydream taking over her sights until she remembered ronan was there. “ exactly. easy peasy. and, please, auradon has ruined you. i don’t know what it is, but you’re softer. you’re like bad melted butter or something. you reek. ”

“ like i said. little princes. ” he drawled, holding his hand up at her, his thumb and pointer finger a small ways apart from each other. he pointed to his head for a moment. “ not much there for some of them, if you ask me. you might actually have a shot. ” he thought about his earlier weeks here, when a prince from a smaller kingdom had come to him to be his rebellious phase. “ well, anyone is bound to be in a better mood once you’re not around. but look, you’re here and you’ve brought it back down again. drats. ” he teased.

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illyriadx:

“ interesting is the least i can be, ” she said, turning her nose up for an air of mystery. illyria laughed, just a little puzzled: “ what’s a good kind of balancing on your toes ?? ” her heart skipped a beat, for no reason at all, and she moved closer, bringing her pillow with her so she sat on the floor next to ronan on vera’s bed. she didn’t know why she did it, only that she wanted to. at his last statement, she quirked an eyebrow, looking all over his face for something to read. 

“ i can’t tell if you’re joking or not. jealousy would mean i own you or something. do i own you ?? ” she asked, tilting her head up to him.

“ that i’m sure of. ” he grins. he makes an aborted hand movement, gesturing between the two of them. “ this. this is the god kind of balancing on my toes. because i don’t know what’s coming yet, but i’d definitely like to see it. ” he watched her move closer, a little surprised if he was being honest, but pleased nonetheless. he tucked his arms against his chest so he could lean closer to her. “ not joking. and i wouldn’t say you own me, per se. ” he let his eyes dart to her lips for a split second as he came face to face with her, a silent question in his eyes. his voice softened to a little louder than a whisper. “ but i will admit that you hold sway. ”

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dizzytrmaine:

dizzy watched the student expectingly, then whipped around so fast  when she heard ronan that she nearly fell over. “ronan!” she said brightly, rushing over. “i’m so glad to see you, i missed you! i ran away from home ‘cause granny was being really mean and came here instead. are people here better?”

ronan watched her run over with a bright grin on his face, and he patted the spot next to him. “ well, have a sat then, kiddo. i’ve missed you too. ” his smiled dimmed just a bit at the mention of his pseudo-grandmere. “ yeah, people are better here. not saying much, since there are few people who are worse than grandmere. ” he joked. “ but if there were people worse, i wouldn’t let them near you. ”

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ptremaine:

“ you’ve slept with enough girls to know by now, ” she snorted. penelope’s jaw dropped at the insult about her not being ‘much’ but couldn’t think of anything to retort with. “ i don’t need a title, i just need all the privileges and luxuries that come with it. official princesses have to deal with all the politics, while side-pieces like me just get all the gold and glitter, ” she smiled, unfazed. her smile tightened a little when he mentioned her mother. “ i’m not the kind of person who would let that happen to me. that’s all, ” she said, turning her nose up. “ you’re so rude in auradon… ”

“ slept with enough boys too. maybe you should be asking me about the little princes. ” he threw her a wink. he chuckled at her logic. “ so a royal side-piece. aiming high there, aren’t you ?? ” he nodded. “ don’t know why i’m surprised though. you were practically raised to be a sugar baby. ” he teased. he let out a snort as he nodded gravely. “ right, of course. just gotta not let that thing happen to you. easy peasy. ” he said, pouting at her playfully. “ it’s the auradon air, y’know ?? makes it easier to run your mouth. ”

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illyriadx:

“ do you like being kept on your toes ?? ” she asked, laughing behind her hand. “ one would think balancing on your toes like that would get tiring. or annoying, ” she said knowingly. illyria quirked an eyebrow at ‘no one new’. “ now, ronan morgenstern, why would i be jealous ?? what you do with your life is entirely up to you, i just… ” she shrugged for dramatic effect, “ read it. which brings me to my next question – do you want me to be jealous ?? ”

“ keeps things interesting. you keep things interesting. ” he grins. “ that would imply the kind of keeping people on their toes that isn’t fun. this is a good kind of balancing on my toes. ” his grin grew at her question, before he pursed his lips, humming in thought. “ perhaps i do. ” he leaned towards her. “ maybe i’d like it if you were jealous of whichever new person that happened to catch my eye.  ”

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( @chloexbriar said: “ i hate games i can’t win. ” )

“ i do love winning, but victory isn’t as fun if it’s an easy game. ” he pointed out, a grin on his face. “ sometimes i like playing games i can’t win at first. i like the challenge of it all. ”

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( @magikaaarp​ said: ❝ whoa, please keep your pants on. ❞ ) 

ronan let out a groan, rolling his eyes at the boy. he paused regardless, standing there with his button popped open. “ come on, karp. it’s the middle of summer and it’s hot. ” he gestured to their window, which was wide open but the air was still stifling. “ let a cat sleep without his pants on please. ”