rosey-utopia

⚘華鬘草⚘

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Hey, it’s me! I can’t get to the phone right now; you know what to do.

“Hey…” a soft sigh escaped Seonghwa’s lips, tumbling too far into the land of ‘does she love me’s’; Will she love me?

“I’ve tried to call a few times, but you still haven’t answered… I know you’re still mad…” a pause followed with the tapping of fingertips against foreign sheets. An obnoxious chirp of a cellphone on the bedside table in a cold hotel room with the roommate he couldn’t look straight in the face; the one whose phone you were undoubtedly blowing up- “I just miss you.” 

Desperate for your touch, your scent, the way you’d call out his name in the dark as dreamy neon lights etched patterns across the soft lines of your curves. 

Blow up my phone. Please. 

But all he got was silence. 

And silence wraps her arms around any lonesome stranger.

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[00:57am]

If they screamed any louder it would blow your eardrums. Melt with sickly sweet bass into your skull until the buzz was indefinite. You didn’t want to feel it, not tonight. You could be different. You were different. Something else, he had called you. So why did he leave his something out to dry in that damn dressing room? The something he wanted so bad. 

Little whispers in his ear as the swarm paraded celebratory cider around out-stretched arms. He was all smiles that didn’t quite reach the glimmer in those muddy blue contacts. Saying you would be leaving cold tonight.  

“I haven’t the time.”

Bullshit. He always had the time. Just another word for later.  

The time to fuck you into oblivion. Make me forget that I’m just like them. Tell me I’m different. I need it so bad it hurts. 

 So one knock on 613 and you were swallowed by the city lights through too-big picture windows. If you looked down on the ants below you would they recognize your guilt you wondered. 

But you didn’t have any. There was no remorse into the breaths that escaped that freckled throat. “Lower. Not there.” Lest they know their dear fox of a boy was subject to such carnal desire. 

You wanted the buzz that he fed into you in every moment. When his hands ghosted your form, took your something for all it was worth and more. And you were fucking expensive. A price he never paid; a heart he could never give. 

At least you hoped so.     

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Little Prince ✨

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[roseyutopia]

A beautiful morning indeed

to smell the flowers 

the lasting scent fading into the universe 

of us 

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