I was sitting at the toilet.
- "what's the problem?", A head peaking from the other stall. His eyes seemed red, so I could guess why he was here.
- "wait", he said shaking his head. "This is not the boys bathroom". He slid back to his stall and peaked from the top of the door.
- "at least you're under that... Thingy", I said pointing at the vent.
He slid his head back to my stall.
- "more like public school problems", I lifted the empty paper roll.
- "let me check", he said sliding back.
I waited and after a few seconds he was back
- "here, I hope this is enough"
- "Jesus, yeah, it's more than enough", i said laughing and taking it. Waiting for him to slide back.
- "I know I have to give you privacy and stuff, but, why are your eyes red? I don't think you do any of this", he said taking his joint out and smoking some. Throwing the smoke in his side.
- "it's nothing, can I have privacy now, please?"
- "darling, I've been here the whole time, I know you haven't done shit in that toilet, you're just pretending, so go on, speak"
- "if I go out there... They're going to keep... Laughing at me because apparently I'm a stupid person for being "pretty" but not wanting to seat with the popular kids. And it's just- nevermind, you don't care about this", I said throwing the paper at his face. When he took it off I was already leaving the stall.
- "hey -", he said following me. "I don't think my group is a popular group, want to give it a try?"
- "do you talk shit about women and expect me to keep my mouth shut?"
- "we're nerds, we barely know that word "women", I laughed.
I followed him, a lot of eyes on my back.
- "folks, welcome the new member", he said doing jazz hands.
- "hi", I was not expecting to be the only girl there, even if I saw all the signs.
- "hey", said a guy with a red shirt kissing my hand.
I furrowed my eyebrows but smiled.
- "don't be weird", said Eddie hitting his hand.
- "hi, I'm Dustin, and this is Mike, Gareth, Jeff and Eddie", said Dustin introducing everyone.
- "Dustin... Mike... Gareth... Jeff and... Geez, I forgot", i said pointing at everyone.
- "no need to worry, sweetheart, master is perfect if you forget my name", he smiled.
- "wait... You all have those shirts"
- "yes", said Dustin showing me his shirt and smiling. (I can imagine his smile, his so fucking cute 😭)
- "here", said Eddie throwing one at me.
I grabbed and lifted it to admire it.
- "put it on", said Gareth. (I'm not gonna lie, I have no idea who's Gareth and who's Jeff, idek if those are they're names I just copied them from another fic lmao)
- "go on, it's tradition!"
- "you don't expect the lady to just change in front of everyone, do you?"
- "it's so weird to see another girl play d&D", said Mike.
- "D&D?", I said confused.
They all turned to look at Eddie. Including me.
- "I just... It's not so important"
- "it's the whole purpose of the group"
I started to feel really bad, I didn't belong here either. God, I just wanted the floor to swallow me to just stop with the embarrassment.
- "oh, don't mind me then", I got up, leaving the shirt on the table.
- "no, y/n!", Yelled Eddie but I quickly ran out of there.
I couldn't help it. Tears were already leaving my eyes.
I lay down behind the basketball's stairs. Just feeling like shit, waiting for the day to finish.
>what if I just ditch the school today? Just 3 more classes, I can copy from someone tomorrow. Fuck, that was so embarrassing< I put my hands on my face.
> I really don't belong anywhere, huh? < More tears scaping my eyes.
I got my headphones out and my cassettes... My cassettes. I started to flip my backpack to find my cassettes.
I only found one, that I bought like 2 days ago, that's why it was still in my backpack. It was a new song from a group I adore.
I didn't know the lyrics but it was really good. I started to check the cassette on the outside.
- "master...", I laughed at the irony. "Of"
He scared the shit out of me. I sat up.
- "By Metallica!", He said jumping in front of me. "didn't mean to scare you". I laughed slightly.
- "didn't mean to get in another group where I don't fit in"
- "not fair, I invited you"
- "without explaining anything"
- "to be fair... Yes, D&D is fun and it's our main thing... But, also... You know"
- "no!" He laughed. "No, being friends. And being the freaks who don't belong anywhere", he said giving me a "do you get it?" Look.
- "and I don't even belong there, how amazing", I said getting up.
- "please, give us a chance", he said grabbing my arm, but not in a rude way.
- "I don't want to embarrass myself even further", i said pulling my arm away from his grip.
Another day of just eating while I watched people talk with their friends and joke... And laugh.
I got up and started to walk to throw my food away.
- "it has come to my attention", said Jason putting his arm around me. I got down so his arm wouldn't touch me. But when I got back up he put it around me anyway.
- "that you have been hanging around with those... Freaks"
- "mind your business, it's so simple", I said trying to walk away.
- "Chrissy gave you a chance"
I stood there just watching him without any expression.
- "aren't you going to say anything?"
- "I want to punch you in the face. That's counts like something, right? Can I go now?"
- "why the violence? I mean, you could but, come on, that wouldn't leave you any good, I'm stronger and-"
- "think about your future, y/n", he said grabbing my shoulders.
- "future? Why does it matter if I sit with anyone? This is highschool, Jason. Nothing matters"
- "it matters if you end up like those freaks, look at them, jobless, ugly, smelly", the basketball team laughed.
- "it's better than ending up like you"
- "and how is that? Successful?", He said in a cocky way.
- "probably fat, bald and with an unwanted marriage" I said laughing while I walked to Eddie's table. - "I don't know anything about D&D but I don't want to seat alone, can I sit with you?", I said swallowing hard.
- "sure, yes, welcome", said Dustin hugging me from one side.
- "what do we say?", Said Eddie to the guys.
- "welcome to hellfire!", They said putting their tongues out and making little horn with their fingers. I laughed.
- "i can't wait to be jobless, ugly and smelly", i said laughing.
- "jobless, ugly and smelly but", said Eddie reaching for something in his backpack. "With style", and he threw the shirt at my face again.
- "thanks", i said getting up. I took my shirt off.
I put the other one on, it fitted perfectly. I sat down, their eyes on me.
- "what? It's the only tradition I can follow apparently", I said laughing.
- "don't worry, I'll teach you about D&D myself", said Eddie winking.
- "I'm looking forward to it", i said smiling.
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