“I love you. You love me. I know it. Let’s show it to the world?“ he said to me in a confident and charming way. He looked straight into my eyes as he wanted to say “Don’t deny it”. I was on cloud nine. I couldn’t believe he just said it to me. I have always loved him secretely, but I never told anyone. I always tried to deny it. It was the best moment in my life. I felt so secure thinking that from now on I will live my life with him by my side. He’s my sunshine. I was so happy.
Then I woke up. It was just a dream. A pathetic dream. But it felt so real, so right.
I’m crying and I can’t help myself. I’m crying because I thought it was real. And I’m crying becaue he and I won’t ever end up together. And I’m crying because I’m a grown-up girl aching so badly for someone in secret. I had thought he was just a crush, but now I know he’s more. It tortures me that I dreamed of him sayng he loves me. It hurts that I will see him at school, maybe speak with him and I’ll have to act like usual - like a normal and nice class mate of his. Nothing changed in his eyes. But I can’t forget what happened in that dream and I’ll always wish it would be real.
