[rrritalinrat]

it's really hard to identify and label what i'm feeling rn like it's really hard to pick apart and examine and understand even though i'm the one feeling it all but i do know that i feel like crying and hiding and i don't totally want to go back home

[rrritalinrat]

never in my life did i think i'd have to drop out of college, and especially not only three months into my freshman year but. here i am :) and lemme say it really does not feel good

[rrritalinrat]

god damn i be. lovin ritalin

[rrritalinrat]

someone please tell me i'm going to be okay

[rrritalinrat]

i'm desperate

[sweetschizo-deactivated20190808]

Hey if you’re schizophrenic/psychotic I just want you to know that you’re a wonderful person and that you deserve so much better than the demonization, marginalization and stigmatization you face in this society.

[sweetschizo-deactivated20190808]

Please consider reblogging this/other positivity posts for schizophrenic/psychotic people every once in a while. If you have more than 100 followers, odds are that a couple of them experiences psychosis and that they rarely see positivity posts for people with their symptoms.

[rrritalinrat]

fall break starts today so i get to leave college and go home for a few days and i'm excited but also a little like. idk sad because i know it will not be the same. it won't be what i want it to be but i will try to make it good nonetheless

[rrritalinrat]

i am too fragile. for this earth for anyone else for anything Goodnight i'm gonna go to sleep and wake up tomorrow like nothing happened

[rrritalinrat]

it be one of those nights. yknow those nights where you put jesus christ by brand new on repeat and stare at the wall and contemplate walking a mile to get off campus to chainsmoke the rest of your cigarettes which are all stale by now but you live in a big city and you're a small young woman so you're scared to go to a gas station so you just suffer

[rrritalinrat]

i made it to college and now i'm doing horribly i have no fucking motivation at all to do anything and im never going to graduate or get a good job i'm so fucked up there's no way i could maintain a good relationship never going to be able to start a family and if i did i would be an awful fucking mother there's just no point i want to die

[rrritalinrat]

everything. hurts so fucking bad i just want to die i hate myself so much and i don't know how to fix it or if. i even can and i don't want to fucking live like this i'm so tired i am so fucking tired

[rrritalinrat]

i'm having a crisis like literally i am in crisis i want to kill myself so bad right now and i'm only not because it would hurt people i love but what's worse being an absolute failure and never accomplishing anything like hurting them by disappointment or just killing myself now and getting it over with so i don't keep hurting them all i. the future

[rrritalinrat]

"hurting u when i’m drunk seems fun" cute and fun and quirky text i received last night from my boyfriend of 8 months while he was drinking 😌💖

[ameriqan]

i want to be a professor and lecture nonsensically for a few hours every day and give students vague essay prompts and read them all and laugh but still pass everyone while i slip some bourbon into my metal coffee mug that doesn’t actually have coffee in it wearing a button-up and vest with no tie but nice jeans and hella expensive shoes that i bought because i have tenure and im never losing my job

[luxwing]

I think it is brave and also very sexy of me to continue living

[succulentbud]

shout out to all the brave and very sexy individuals who are still here with us despite life being tough. that’s extremely voluptuous and your meat is huge

[sappharah]

my skills include reading an entire page of an academic text without absorbing a single word

[rrritalinrat]

i saw a jenny holzer piece at an art museum the other day and fell in love with it- it was very very confusing and weird but i loved it and since then i have seen her work on tumblr and instagram like over and over?