My mom being critical and completely unsympathetic to me because I went back to my ex for a few days like a dumbass is making me so upset. And it’s making my think about my grandpa’s sister from Mexico who married a man that used to beat the shit out of her, and she would come home to her parents to get away from him after he’d beat her, and finally her dad told her if she didn’t stay with them and went back to her husband that they’d never let her into their home again. And she went back and he beat her really badly, worse than ever, and she came back to her parents like she always did and her dad didn’t let her in and because she had nowhere to go she killed herself. My situation isn’t nearly as drastic but I’ve just been thinking about how hard it is to break the cycle of abuse and stop going back to someone who is hurting you when you have feelings for them. Never thought I would be in this situation but my mom is making me feel so terrible for it and I don’t need her to I already feel terrible about it, already feel like an idiot and I can’t believe I’m in this situation I never thought I would get so attached to someone who uses me and manipulates me and treats me like they hate my guts. I went back to him because I forgot how shitty he really is and am going through a breakup with someone else and feeling lonely and lost and insecure and it just would be nice to get some sympathy from someone who knows me so well. I hate my life I hate myself I hate that evil man I should’ve never given him another chance I set back my healing so much I hate my life!!!
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