DEEP down INSIDE we ALL love MATH

Hard as concrete, Strong as Steel. I'm not pretty, I'm not smart, I'm not talented, I don't have super powers, I don't live with perfect values. I'm just a human who knows how to balance the two major parts of my being, MY HEART and MY BRAIN. "I don't have an attitude, it's just the way I am."

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Tama ka nga. Kaibigan ang kailangan ko para makalimot.

Salamat sa pagpapaalala

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Because it’s the 17th day of the month.

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Four days to go and it’s my birthday.

I want my favorite vampire to blow the candles with me on my special day. Hihi (giggle) Kilig!!!

Pero sa totoo lang, mas gusto ko kasama si #busiestmanonplanetearth sa araw na yun.

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DEDUCT HATRED

To the one I barely know,

Sabi ko I WILL ALWAYS REGRET THE DAY I MET YOU (AGAIN).

Hindi pala.

I will always thank God for making our paths cross. Ikaw na kahit di mo ko mahal (kahit hindi mo naman talaga ako minahal).

For me, every FEELS was real.

The happiness kapag kausap kita.

The sorrows kapag namimiss kita.

The concerns... The worries... The LOVE.

Everything... SOOOOO REAL.

Hindi man tayo mag-end up together. Hindi man natin mapatunayan na FOREVER does exist. I’m still thankful.

Thank You kasi naparamdam mo sa kin na kahit papano pwede naman pala talaga akong mahalin (kahit na sa kunwari lang).

Thank you kasi napasaya, nacomfort, naembrace, ako ng mga SUGAR COATED words mo. Kahit na hindi sila totoo... Kahit every ILOVEYOUs and IMISSYOUs were lies... Naramdaman ko na in some point sa lifespan ko, I was cared, trusted, loved, accompanied, never left alone, sheltered.

I LOVE YOUR LIES.

I will always treasure that. 

Alam ko, pagdating ng panahon na magkasalubong tayo, makakangiti pa rin ako sa harap mo... dahil ikaw... OO IKAW... ang unang lalaking minahal ko.

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The feels. :( :( :(

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SUMMATION of feelings

This was the first time that I’ll write a note for SOMEONE THAT I BARELY KNEW.

BGM: Shadow

I’m a broken soul. Trapped in a space. Nowhere to go. Shattered. That’s how you met me when you first laid your feet on our doorstep.

When I first met you (again), I never thought that you’d be this special. I never had a serious slash official slash real romantic relationship before. Between those short talks, simple jams, I fell. Yes I fell... and it penetrates as time goes by. I hoped you knew, until that first “Iloveyou”. Akala ko totoo na ang lahat.

I have trust issues, pero dahil sayo, nabalewala yun. Right then I knew, ready na ulit ako magtiwala. I gave you my trust... I gave you my love. I said “oo”. I was happy. I started counting every 17th day of the month.

Mahal kita, segurado ako. Nagstart ako bumuo ng thoughts, dreams, na kasama ka. But then I guess, the time I fell for you, di mo talaga ako sinalo.

Every ILOVEYOU...? meaningless. 

Hindi ako warrior to fight the battle against your past. I know na may mark na sila deeply embedded sa heart mo. Bago ako makapasok, may tenants na dun. OR nakapasok na ba talaga ako? Mahal mo na ba ako katulad ng lagi mong sinasabi?

Lately I asked you ramdom things pero ni isa wala kang nasagot.

MAHAL MO BA KO TALAGA? Gusto ko malaman.

DO YOU TRUST ME? Gusto ko malaman.

MASAYA KA BA? Gusto ko malaman.

SATISFIED KA BA SA RELATIONSHIP NA TO? Gusto ko malaman.

NAGDA-DOUBT KA BA? Gusto ko malaman.

DO YOU BELIEVE ME? Gusto ko malaman.

SA TINGIN MO BA NAGSASAYANG KA LANG NG ORAS SA KIN? Gusto ko malaman.

ANONG TOTOO BEHIND EVERY ILOVEYOU? Gusto ko malaman.

I started to question everything... kelan mo ko minahal o mahal mo ba talaga ako? Anong totoo sa lahat ng sinabi mo? Isa’t kalahating taon... Ako lang ba talaga? o ako lang talaga ang nagmahal?

Dati lage kong pinipray na sana ikaw at ako na talaga ang itinakda ng Dyos... pero ngayon... Ang tanging dasal ko, sana mangyari ang makakabuti para sa nakararami. Ang gusto ko lang naman maging masaya ka, kahit ibig sabihin nun ay wala ako sa buhay mo. Kahit na masaya ka kapiling ang ibang tao.

Alam ko wala kang idea sa pinagsasasabi ko. I’ve seen enough, I’ve read enough, I’ve heard enough... pero tingin ko wala ka man lang ka-clue clue.

I’m thinking if we should stay on this relationship or let go. MAHAL KITA at wala yung duda... but, love with a broken trust? Saan tayo dadalhin nito?

If this is a game, please wag ako, iba na lang. I don’t like sports that much. 

I just wanted you to be honest. If you want to stay, please stay. if you want to go, please feel free to go.. Pero ang daya mo, di naman ako nagkulang sa pagsabi sayo na BUMITAW KA PAG TINGIN MO AYAW MO NA. Bakit ngayon pa to nangyayari kung kelan I’m deeply in love with you already.

I CRY EVERY NIGHT beacause of you, syempre di mo alam.

I’M LOST because of you,  syempre di mo alam.

I’M HURTING because of you,  syempre di mo alam.

NASIRA SISTEMA KO because of you,  syempre di mo alam.

I’M HAPPY YOU CAME, BUT IF I ONLY HAVE A TIME MACHINE, I’LL GO BACK TO THE TIME I FIRST MET YOU, PARA MAKAIWAS NA KO.

--i know this ain’t good bye, this is just a compilation of thoughtless words mula sa magulong utak ko atm.

Uuwi ka na next year, excited ka kayang makita at makasama ako o excited kang makita at makasama SYA? Sa ganito kaduming isip... tamang duda... tamang hinala... sa tingin mo may pag-asa pa tayong magka- FOREVER?

6.27.2015

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from this day on... i'll enjoy counting numbers every 17th day of the month...

Twelve photos... One song... Let see if we can go that far. :v

GROW OLD WITH YOU :P

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Merry Christmas Boss... Miss You <3 <3 <3

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That's what friends are for.

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patiently waiting...

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Never regret waiting. It's your choice anyway.

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