wren

[sablemart]

There are different definitions the noun "human" has. One is universal and scientific, where it is applied to ever homo sapien born from there on out. The other could be considered more cultural, where the conception of humanity is built from practices and norms which inadvertently disregard cultural relativity. The latter results in dehumanization of other ethnic and cultural groups, often coming from a eurocentric position.

I don't believe anti-humanism necessarily proposes to complete eradication of the word human itself, but it does ask to deconstruct and recontextualize the more colonial and European roots of the word. There is no one way of being human, a person's idea of humanity will always be relative to what they experience throughout their lives.

[sablemart]

Spirituality often takes the direction of thought that the ego is something to be rejected; that it generates ignorance and a restricted worldview. I am of the opinion that the ego is something that physically incapable of being rejected, that we as humans will always one way or another resort to the ego. The ego builds the mind, and it is the muscle that perceives and interprets thought.

Any attempt to dismantle and to think without ego is still resorting to it. Spiritual rejection of ego has to consult with the ego because every action we take runs through a subjective process. This isn't to say I don't believe people cannot become more universal and spiritually perceptive through awareness of our ego, and in this way I do believe a concept of "ego-death", but ego will always have a function in our worldly minds and I believe it to be inhumane to scorn it when healthy.

[sablemart]

I saw a skit talking about people who are contrarian and disagree with the littlest things (ie. "it's not even that" then says something very similar) and the comment section decided to make it a conversation about people who are audhd, because those types of people typically prefer very precise communication.

What came to mind was this double standard people have: when someone is considered neurodivergent has these traits that are considered difficult, it's defended as being just the way they think. However, it's contrarian for someone who is considered neurotypical to hold the same mindsets, as if someone who doesn't have a mental disorder cannot have a similar framework to their counterparts. I think a lot of people with audhd often alienate themselves more than their mental disabilities actually do because you start to notice they treat themselves as structured entirely differently towards people that are "normal", when even people who don't have mental disabilities are in their own way very diverse in their approach to language, emotions, and conversations. One side is accommodated for their "contrarian" habits while the other is criticized and considered annoying.

[joldfish]

Harbor Lion at the beach

[sablemart]

I want to be someone able to put morality above instinct, in the sense that I want to make the right decision over what might be the more pleasurable one. I'm not completely ashamed of my more gritty instinct, and I actually find myself attracted to the manifestations that come from it, but I want to be able to do what's moralistic when it really counts. I worry that my philosophic and moral thought is secretly corrupted by my desire for pleasure, and it makes me feel as though I deserve to be held accountable for something that might not even be wrong in the first place.

[sablemart]

It would be nice if life gave you all of its lessons during your coming of age. It seems, with me, life started to give me those necessary lessons and then just suddenly started flaking out on me. How more well rounded would I have been if I was taught more earlier in life? I grieve the possibilities that I have lost when there is no time for grief. I have the privilege of being someone worthy and I should learn to take action in that privilege.

[sablemart]

It's hard to put aside your own ailments in order to heal another's, especially when you don't feel good enough to do so. I want to be capable of healing, I value being able to give something emotionally, I don't want that value to be threatened by incompetence. I hope that I can someday be a worthy person in someone's life.