it’s not living

call me cat - this is my vent blog

[sadcatkiddo]

we be out here getting dumped again but not understanding what’s up

[sadcatkiddo]

fun fact you can’t bitch me out when you don’t care abt me anymore. you lost the right stop looking for it

[sadcatkiddo]

I guess all I’m saying is I really did love you, as much as I may have made mistakes. at least I can always say I loved you. I am sorry for what I know is going to happen

[sadcatkiddo]

we out here having breakdowns and avoidin. Home and getting blackout drunk and spending the holidays alone and having fun ruining ourselves bc even if we’re growing someone stunted us

[sadcatkiddo]

fuck you honestly

[sadcatkiddo]

I cry on the side of the road while the tourists stare at me and I don’t even care! I wonder how many of them have cried on the side of the road too

[sadcatkiddo]

real manic hours

[sadcatkiddo]

i can survive being alone but the game doesnt feel very fair

[sadcatkiddo]

to think just a few weeks ago we were here together makes me feel so hollow!! I can barely remember those feelings I just remember and know how much I miss them

[sadcatkiddo]

everyone says I’m strong and that they’re proud but honestly I wish i was the one w the easy opt out in this situation and maybe even if it’s better for me in the end that I grow and change I so desperately want to be held and knowing he can and I can’t makes me ache

[sadcatkiddo]

how many nights do I need to cry over someone that won’t even think of me

[sadcatkiddo]

people are so cruel just so fucking mean and hurtful and even if I know karma will get them in the end it doesn’t make it any easier when the lost important person in your life can move on from such a substantial relationship immediately

[sadcatkiddo]

I’m not saying some people deserve to die but also? hm

[sadcatkiddo]

like idk maybe you should admit you’re the monster under the bed for me now

[sadcatkiddo]

anyhow fu k people and fuck love and fuck you