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Tick

The sound that haunts my dreams.

A boring class, the laughter of your friends.

A single tick but so many meanings, so many memories, and more than a thousand more.

But so many have passed. And so many more will.

Dreams and fears and moments.

How can I fit it all in?

A thousand more ticks but what about that wasted one? How many more until my body is the wasted one?

A thousand ticks a day, and not all of them cherished.

What if that’s my last one? During which tick will I perish?

The passing of time and the downfall of man. The passing of time and the progress since beginning.

Tick, I’m on the train.

Tick, I’m in pain.

Tick, the laughter of friends.

Tick, the wounds you mend.

Tick, the moments I’ll cherish.

Tick, the moments we relish.

Tick

Tick.

Where’d all my time go?

Did I savour it, waste it, throw away it?

And how will I spend it? Can I apprehend it?

Oh honey how will I save it? And when will mine be ended?

I’m terrified. Electrified.

I’ve identified and rectified but still it will never be enough!

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It’s dark and I’m alone. The ticks whisper a scream. I pull and pull and pull my ears, they’re still there. The ticks are still here, I’m still here, why am I HERE?

will I always be here?

Time passes, I do not. I pass and time doesn’t. It’s still and it’s moving. It’s rapid and delaying.

Why did I get it? Why did he not?

Tick.

I wish I and time would rot.

#chronophobia #in my feels #poetry?#spoken poetry #rant #time #running out of time #existential crisis #writing #sad poem

What an odd feeling it is to be haunted by somebody who is still alive.

To dread their birthday and flinch at the song we listened to together.

To see they posted on social media and know you should block them but you can’t; it’s like an external force is stopping you.

To see them in the corner of your eye and your heart jumps and your hands shake; just to turn around and it’s somebody else.

To hear their laugh and there be nothing you can do about it because they aren’t even there.

To meet somebody who shares their name and know you can never befriend this person.

To be haunted by somebody who hasn’t died.

#ex friends #haunted #existential crisis

If you know me irl keep going this post is not for you.

Anyways I think I’m finally starting to get over him! No point chasing after a guy who is chasing someone else even if he is insanely attractive.

And if you know me irl because you ignored my initial sentence just ignore this too and please do not hold me to my words. Thanks!

#crush #getting over someone #still hot

applebears-blog

It’s me and my Semicolon against the world

Today’s rant is my ducking state government.

The colour that is associated with our state is also somewhat associated with the party that just went out of power so the new party has SPENT MONEY changing all of our education websites to their colour AND their slogan. The same party who was worried kids were being indoctrinated at schools. AND NOW THEY ARE THE ONES WHO HAVE MADE IT SO I CANT SIGN INTO ANYTHING WITHOUT SEEING THEIR COLOUR AND SLOGAN!!!

THE COLOUR IT WAS BEFORE WASNT EVEN THE OLD PARTY’S COLOUR IT WAS OUR STATE COLOUR THAT HAPPENS TO BE CLOSE TO THE COLOUR OF THE OTHER PARTY.

So

Anyways

How’s YOUR morning been?

:)

I may not have achieved most of the goals I set out for 2025 but you know what I did do? Survive.

I made it to an age I used to be certain I never could. I got to laugh and cry and work and play. I got to build connections and I got to let go of some that weren’t good for me. I got to self reflect, and I managed to come to terms with parts of myself I didn’t know existed.

I did good too. I helped people in need and raised awareness. I spoke out, I put speech into action. I inspired and I got inspired. I achieved some things much better than any of the goals I set out to.

I wasn’t perfect. But I survived.

doll-ceci

I’m so pathetic why am I giggling and kicking me feet from seeing his notification on my screen. Like it wasn’t even a crazy message and he didn’t even text first. Just a normal response to the text I sent him. Send help.

#crush #help me lord #wtf #no but actually do I’m getting worse by the day

New level of yearning unlocked where I literally NEVER remember having dreams (I don’t mean forgetting them as soon as I wake up I mean I was fully convinced I just didn’t dream until I found out in psych that that’s realistically untrue) HOWEVER last night I had I think the 4th one about crush. Like what the hell. I can’t escape him even in unconscious.

ST5 SPOILERS

⚠️⚠️⚠️

Robin’s speech to Will. Holy shit. I won’t go into it too much, nor how I specifically relate to it. That’s for my TikTok and text messages. In these tumblr chats if someone is desperate enough to hear it I suppose. But I just wanted to come on here and appreciate it, because I think it just healed a generation of queer kids who’ve been looking for validation in others. It healed me.

Thank you Duffers.

I’ll leave this post with a reminder to listen to little you. They have the answers. I know she did

#stranger things #st5 spoilers #robin buckley #queer pride #acceptance #younger self #the duffer brothers

Y’all my birthday party is in like 2 weeks and one of the ppl invited is trying to plot a way to make my crush, who will also be in attendance, make a move. Like threatening to do the whole “oh if that cake comes out dirty you have to kiss the closest boy” thing. Help.

#crush #birthday #help me lord

omgsen

Having a crush on someone is nice until you start losing your mind.

strawberriesfiend

Everyone in this ep getting mad at Conrad for thinking confessing his love would cause Belly to leave jeremiah and everytime he's like, well clearly it did something otherwise you wouldn't be so pressed about it.