sad bitch

[sadhofosho]

I hope he cares for the garden. I hope when he sees it he sees my smile and hears my laugh. It's all I have to leave for him really. That, perfume & clothes upon clothes.

[sadhofosho]

I have a feeling someone else in my family has died or will be dying soon and once again no one will call or say anything. I guess I shouldn't care because they don't but I feel a lot of rage/sadness about the ways my family has always chosen their comfort over ANY TYPE of relationship with me. Who I am and what I feel & say has always been inconvenient for them and I honestly think me moving away at 17 gave them all the relief in the world. The final relief will be when my bf texts them that I finally ended it. And I'm definitely close, I feel like a ghost that hasn't figured they're dead yet and when I do everything will end, FINALLY. Like I'm at the very end of the movie and the music is crescendo-ing, it's about to dawn on me and I'll fade in peace.

And maybe if I'm lucky when it's all over I'll get to rest in my grandma's bed forever.

[serpentmolt]

my wildest fantasy is somebody genuinely caring for me and wondering what's going on with me whenever i go silent

[bonescaro]

you can tell a lot about a person by who their first fictional crush was. it also explains every fictional crush they’ve had since

who was yours? i’ll go first: mine was batman :x

[couchnapping]

flaccid penis... it's chic, it's hip, it's the next big thing

[couchnapping]

it's the next thing

[sadhofosho]

some white dude that looked like mr beast appeared by the highway and started giving away chocolate bars... girl what the fuck is my city on? he's calling himself Mr. Sober

[sadhofosho]

I want to smell like a blooming coneflower on a warm day.

[leo-from-the-past]

World Naked Gardening Day

[milksockets]

jo hammar in heavy rubber magazine

[kosmogrl]

they weren’t kidding when they said the only way out is through

[sadhofosho]

why is everyone so scarless lately, like did everyone get better at hiding their scars or what? I'm not the only bitch on this planet with hyperpigmentation, I'm not the only chocolate chip cookie on this bitch!

[soapmoth]

[graceebooks]

i’m just having fun. hatred is involved but i’m just having fun

[tragicburnout]

i get upset when i have to revoke my love from people. like damn, i didn't even get to love you as much as i wanted to

[sadhofosho]

Beautiful insects flittering around today.

[sadhofosho]

I'm making a huge pan of banana chocolate chip bread pudding to serve to the unhoused on Monday right? Step outside to bask in the post rain wildfire haze, WHY IS THERE A BUMBLE BEE NEST IN MY LAWN??? I watched these wet ass bees fly and disappear into the lawn, I was aghast. Like I have all these fucking pollinator garden spots and you... you chose my fescue lawn bitch?

[sadhofosho]

this sounds like a complaint but really I'm just astounded daily by how many things go beautifully for me. My bread pudding turned out so wonderfully, the bumble bees are very active in my gardens, I'm making more connections with non profits, the people I serve love what I bring, I'm getting more resources together to be able to cook/concoct more frequently, I'm in better shape than I've been in years because of the biking, I got to touch on something hot and didn't get burned. Like the list goes on. I hate life but like damn.. there are some feel good moments happening this year.

[sadhofosho]

don't play with meeeeeeee!!!!!

[sadhofosho]

all the gardening folks giddy and laughing about how they grew their own lettuce so they don't have to worry about cyclospora give the same energy as the plant people who were happy and jokey they could stay home and hoard more (overpriced) plants. as usual it's let's laugh at the poor time.