Silke

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[sadnesstothemaximum]

I havent been really active, honestly because ive been doing pretty well. Gonna catch up on your blogs soon! Hope everyone is doing okay❤️ sending lots of love and hugs and warm mugs of tea or ice cold yummy iced tea if you're also going through another heatwave like i am. Gonna write a plan to body recomp cause i think its time... done being skinny fat and time to actually put in the work. Took a while to gather the courage and who knows how its going to go but ill see. Gotta take care of myself :).

[sadnesstothemaximum]

Damn relationships am i right

Think i should go to therapy or smth

[sadnesstothemaximum]

Most bomb ass avocado toast ive had in a looong while. Outdid myself once again!

A whopping ..... cals and ramble below the cut

540 calories with the protein yoghurt included, but you know what its gonna keep me full for a while and its been the most healthy balanced meal ive had in a long time. 28 grams of protein and 10 grams of fibre!!

Been struggling with cravings and restricting a lot. Really cant deal with feeling hungry and tired atm so instead of eating shitty carby foods i can at least try to eat as healthy as possible while also enjoying some treats once in a while. Lets see how it goes, gained 0,6 and then maintained for a few days eating normal ish so i guess ill be fine. Been feeling really good lately suns out etc. Might try building some muscle to look less skinny fat who knows. For now things are going well in my life.. done with withdrawals, feeling better and more productive. Only thing left to tackle rn is time management and to perfect my sleep scedule hell yeahh hope i can keep this up and not crash and get depressy again. Only time will tell! Love you guys thanks for reading all of that❤️

[sadnesstothemaximum]

Want to delete tumblr to lower my screen time but i also want to see what my lovely mutuals are up to shiii what to do what to do

[sadnesstothemaximum]

I am really happy i lost weight but why do i have to be skinny fat??? I just looked at the scale and i did NOT like that my eating has been all over the place but like why do i feel bad??? I eat normally or like 1500-2000 cals for two days, finally have energy again, work out, hang out with friends, do crafts all day, still have a clean room like whyyyyy do i still feel this way if i seem to do everything right? Bought myself a toner and flowers, went outside in the sun for a good amount of time. I really dont get it i really just dont. What the fuck else do i need to do to feel good???? No but can someone actually tell me cause im lost

[anxietyproblem]

[sadnesstothemaximum]

Yep idk what to do with all these thoughts and feelings.. normally id just smoke but i dont want to dissapoint my bf bc i havent smoked in 10? days? Guess ill shower and see if that helps. Normally it doesnt really but whatever maybe it will. What are you guys' methods to help with negative thoughts and also hating your body hating everything i do or say and not even being able to pinpoint anything... i just dont get it.. went climbing with friends and it went really well, did a lot of level 5 which i could only do one if last time (probably bc i lost weight and its easier now) and now i think my friends hate me and that im this and that bla bla bla. What will help pls

[sadnesstothemaximum]

Love how after two good days i get an intense bout of self hatred again and i dont want to see anyone or do anything and turn do self destructive behaviors or unhealthy coping mechanisms but there are none left😭 this suuuckkksssss i just want to feel good for a few days pleaaasseeee can i just have 4 good days please

[sadnesstothemaximum]

Hungry an hour after i said i would start a fast.. gonna be a long day damnit

[sadnesstothemaximum]

Still here, fasting from 10.45 until idk when cause i gotta lock back in goddamn it. Lots of crafting and chilling happening today already went to the city to get some stuff and ask something. Now home and craft and mixtape make time

[sadnesstothemaximum]

Feeling so bad about what i ate today im thinking about deleting tumblr for a while...

[gardenrainn]

a woman without her bong is like an angel without its wings ପ(๑ᴗ͈‸ᴗ͈)ଓ

[sadnesstothemaximum]

Eating way too much today fuck, wanted to eat what i wanted for once but now i regret everything fuuhuuckk. Thank god i sleep at my boyfriends so i cant weigh myself tomorrow and already have an hour walk planned but god why why why

[sadnesstothemaximum]

Calories

Cravings got the best of me and im at 800 rn and its 15.30 ughh i should not have eaten those snacks but whats done is done. Did burn some of it off ofc with work and walking 45 mins or smth. Probably have dinner with bf so hoping that will be somewhat low cal but kinda wanna skip dinner aaaaaaa

[sadnesstothemaximum]

Changed my rook and got salt spray for my conch. Yippie 35 euros lighter gonna do it myself next time probably but after reaching my gw ans new lw i derserve it😎

[sadnesstothemaximum]

Okay so the lady was kinda uninterested so i rushed with choosing which one and said can i just have a ring in it but idk if i like the ring hmmmmmmm

[sadnesstothemaximum]

Changed my rook and got salt spray for my conch. Yippie 35 euros lighter gonna do it myself next time probably but after reaching my gw ans new lw i derserve it😎

[sadnesstothemaximum]

Deciding to eat a bit more before work cause i am DONE being so weak and tired. I can be weak and tired at home but not at work thats just needless torture. Ill burn it off anyway and have a smaller dinner