SaiVanMarly

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When I was little I always found the bully characters in cartoons intriguing and then my taste seemed to evolve worse until I somehow have Warren now.

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I had a dream Warren was walking around on a stage in a Akatsuki cloak from Naruto. I think it was being recorded. The same night, I also dreamed that a bunch of characters got turned into toddlers or tiny versions of themselves... and I scooped up Warren and several others in my arms. I remember yelling to someone else to pick up the others and I was trying to carry them out into the hallway?

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Who needs an alarm when you have a Warren Mears, amiright? Anyways, my dad can't pay the bill so I have gone days with the slowest internet known to man and the fact this loaded enough for me to get on here and type this is fascinating. I'm going to my mamaw's house in a few days so I'll be able to connect there and finally do what I need to. The other day I tried to get into something at 9 in the morning and it didn't load until 10 at night. I told several someones I prayed to the Warren Mears Gods and must have been granted, I guess. 💀 Nothing good would come of that. That whole group was worried about me because I haven't responded in days which shocked me and I expected no one to notice, lmao.

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Someone I know said she would throw new Warren down the stairs. I think both Warren and Andrew were dropped down the stairs when they were born or something. Or, at least Andrew was, I don't know...

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Someone I know said she would throw new Warren down the stairs. I think both Warren and Andrew were dropped down the stairs when they were born or something. Or, at least Andrew was I don't know...

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Important.

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I can't imagine a world where I watch this show and then don't constantly think about him all the time and every day, it's absurd, lmao.

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I once had a crack theory that Andrew was like a reverse Dawn and one day everyone just had their memories wiped. So, Tucker is just like, "Who the hell is this guy who is supposedly my brother?" Lmao. There was a lot more to the "theory" but it was silly.

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Several people told me I look like Connor another said I like look Lilah. There was one that said I look like Angel-Andrew, Connor, and Willow all mixed together. The conclusion someone else came to is if Lilah and Connor had a kid that would be me. I think I look like none, lmao. The strangest one is Angel-Andrew. I'm not sure where that came from. All I have learned is I'm definitely an Angel character and morally gray?

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For context, I got locked out of my account on another website for months and finally got it back. Someone replied to me and told me that they missed seeing me in comment sections and stuff. It's interesting and strange to me because I wouldn't think anyone would notice or if they did it would be like "Oh no, there's that weird damn Warren obsesser again!", lol.

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Those things where you can only join by answering questions are so awkward because all it would have to ask is "Who is Your Favorite Buffy The Vampire Slayer Character?" and I would be banned forever. It's a difficult question to answer, lmao. Uh, I can't answer that... Next question?

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I'm glad that there are others but sometimes I wish that I could feel about Warren what the rest of you do, if that makes sense. I see what you all say and think 'why couldn't I think like that too?' There is a part of me that still feels guilty about stuff and I feel awkward about it so I keep a lot of my opinions and thoughts to myself. It feels like I'm lying a lot. Not really lying just so more trying to remove that other part.

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I think I finally realized why I’m so secretive about my stuff. I was thinking back on something that happened to me when I was little (that I will not talk about) and the person who did it had stolen my Kindle I had at the time, as well. Really, I think I care more about that than what they did to me because that meant they had direct excess to my embarrassing videos, notes, or whatever else was on that device. I have always been very private with things I make or my stuff in general so I think this added to it. Whenever anyone comes into my room or near me my first thought is to block or close my notebook or laptop or whatever I’m using even if what I’m doing or writing isn’t bad. If I have to get up and leave what I’m doing, I always hide it somewhere. Then I thought back to that experience and I think that is partly why. 

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I had a random thought. If Buffyverse characters appeared in twos, who'd be the other's 'two'? Obviously, Andrew and Warren. Then that just leaves poor third wheel Jonathan, lmao.

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The Trio is part of the reason that I can't create anything original. Sometimes I want to make an original 'series' to write but my mind is in the mood for whatever show I'm into so much that I start trying to make all the characters rip-offs of characters I'm invested in and I can't stand it because it isn't as good as the actual thing, of course. I want actual Warren, Andrew, and Jonathan and nothing compares. This is weird because I will write something about say Buffy and Willow, however, their personality and everything begins to become an entirely different person and weirdly this doesn't bother me? For some reason It's better to me for a canon character to be someone else but with the face and name tag of the actual character but really annoying for an original character to be rip-off of an actual character... Why doesn't that set me off? It's exactly the same thing with the rip-off but reversed? Then I'm stuck in this really weird situation where I want to make something myself but none of the characters are good enough because I want the characters from the series I'm fixated on. But then when I go and write about the actual characters they turn into new characters! There is no in between or else I would use it to make something new but because there isn't, there is only one or the other, it's frustrating. My best friend was irritated by this because she wanted to create something new but my mind wanted The Trio and this was not working.