Salem

Yanblr 18

[salems3nd]

Salem's End

Welcome to my Haven, this is my safe space to unravel the inner workings of my mind. I am not a healthy person, though I try to improve, and I have many unsafe urges within. I will expand on that further inside...

You may call me Salem, or any other nickname you choose. This is not my real name.

I am 18 and AFAB

My pronouns are primarily she/her, although I do find peace when referred to by using she/they pronouns. Use whichever you choose.

If I were to label myself as a certain sexuality, I suppose it would be bisexual. I am attracted to both genders, I don't believe I have a preference, nor do I care if you are ftm or mtf

Following this, I'm impartial to polyamory. I believe it takes very mature couples to be able to healthily succeed in one, especially on yanblr. Therefore my openness will differ on a case by case scenario

I am currently diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), Chronic Depression, and Social Anxiety Disorder, among other things. It is theorized I may also have OCD, this awaits further testing.

I am neither pro nor anti recovery. I am currently in therapy, and trying to improve in some terms, however I also relapse quite often and don't care for the consequences. I will not judge others decisions, as it would be hypocritical

I am a part of the yanblr and jirai community, I do not know if I would consider myself a paraphile etc, but I do relate to posts they make.

While this blog may contain sensitive topics, none of what I say should be seen in a sexual manner. I have an NSFT blog specifically for that, see below..

I am not religious, while I may refer to some religious themes in my posts, I do not believe in any god as of this moment. I am mostly atheist, but I suppose I could also classify as agnostic

I do not have a strict DNI, merely respect me and this blog. I would appreciate it if reblogs were not made by NSFW accounts, though I do not expect for everyone to scour through my rules before interacting. I will be forgiving, but I will set boundaries if I feel the need to.

I do not have notifications turned on as I am on the website

This is my main blog, my side blog/nsft blog is @salems-h3art

#salem yearns will consist of untargeted obsessive writings

#salem speaks will consist of untargeted, unobsessive writings, general posts

#salem mourns will consist of vent posts

#salem answers will consist of answering asks

#beyond salem will consist of reblogs

#salems rage will consist of writing about violent episodes

Mutuals will be getting special tags, assigned by specific heart emojis

Colors in use (💜)

[salems3nd]

I'm giving up, on everything, I think

Nobody in my life stays, I for those that do, they won't care when I'm gone. I might write a note tonight, I'm scared but it has to be done

[salems3nd]

Idk why I thought I had friends, I'm such a moron. The only reason anyone would be around me is out of pity

[salems3nd]

No one is ever going to fall in love with me

[salems3nd]

I'm a kind and supportive person I think, but don't ever cry in front of me because I'll stare at you like you're psychotic

[salems3nd]

I need help with my hair, but don't know how to ask without seeming like one of those white girls pretending they have curls.

I know I don't have curls, my hair is just fairly wavy. However my hair is extremely thick due to my hispanic heritage and my scalp isn't getting the moisture it needs

[salems3nd]

Sometimes I randomly remember "hey...I'm actually kind of an attractive person and people like me" and that's very odd to me

This one person is being super clingy and I cant process it

[salems3nd]

I want to be pet, like a dog. Just don't be surprised when I bite too.

[salems3nd]

You don't need anyone else, I mean that wholeheartedly. I can provide for you, whatever you want I will give you. All I require is that you keep your eyes on me.

[salems3nd]

My feelings for you are like a fire burning in my chest, intense and everlasting. If this fire diminishes, so will my life, for I'm nothing without you.

[salems3nd]

I keep on throwing up and I'm worried that people are gonna think I'm pregananant

[miserymaw]

Jealousy is the second sexiest trait in a person, the first being homicidal tendencies.

[salems3nd]

I love you so much it makes me hate myself

[salems3nd]

I'm going to starve myself

[yournewlove]

Moon my tummy hurts :( I hope you're having a good day and finding good fics on ao3

Thank you!! I'm sorry your tum hurts broski- do you have meds or maybe some tea that can help soothe you?

And I don't usually read fics on ao3, I write my ownn!~ (because I get so annoyed when people don't characterize my babes correctly lOL)

[salems3nd]

YES I love writing I just suck at it 🥹 I mostly write on Quotev, specifically because its a smaller community and I get nervous loll

I'm forcing pepto down my throat and chugging cherry tea at the moment

[salems3nd]

I'm not stupid, I'm not gross, I'm unwell. But of course you don't care enough to see beyond what you first perceived.

[salems3nd]

I don't think you grasp how literally I mean "I'd carve my heart out for you"

I am holding the knife, I will push it in, just give me the word