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Samantha | SD & PDX | 26   tea queen, harry potter lover, lawyer //  positivity is key

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[samanthanjavier]

2.22.17

of course we have bad days. the past couple of days have been like a rough patch in a calm sea. but the way I think of it, we're all works in progress where there will be highs and lows. the peaks and valleys are there to remind you that you can never have too much of a good thing. at least that's what it represents to me. my low points leave me longing for the days where the sun was shining and I felt weightless. but my low points also leave me stronger and prepare me to climb back up the mountain to reach the peak where you can see the sunset vividly pink, yellow, and orange. the lows remind me that a new day will come and while right now it's not easy, eventually that rhythm will come back again and the work in progress that is yourself is one step closer to being whole.

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2.20.17

of course you don’t remember, why would you? remember a 13 year old girl running away from you and locking the bathroom door to protect herself. and now it comes back to haunt me with thoughts of I should have done something about it back then. I should have told someone. but when you’re a 13 year old girl with no interest in sex how can you tell if someone who’s supposed to be there for you and is part of your family has just committed the worst crime a boy can commit. and not just once but multiple times. when he convinces you he’s “teaching” you that this is something you shouldn’t let any boy do to you. then why did you do it? so you could leave me scarred and confused and scared to be around you? uncomfortable by your presence even 12 years later? is that what you wanted? and how desperately I hid that secret to avoid a family conflict, to avoid humiliation, to avoid reliving those moments. and years later when I realized it wasn’t my fault, it wasn’t supposed to happen, it was unacceptable I tried to move on and move forward. but now my decision not to have you around can’t be respected without an explanation. and now I have to relive it anyways. of course you forgot because who would want to remember? what man admits that he did such a thing? I wish I forgot too but I can’t.