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[sar-kasstic]

Hi, hello.

So uhhh...its been a while.

Ya girl had that surgery ✌️

So now it's gonna be an adventure of seeing what my body does to adjust.

Here's to a new normal 🥂

[sar-kasstic]

Kinda crazy that it's taken 6 different medications to make me feel "normal".

Man I can't wait for this surgery. Soon this WILL be normal.

[sar-kasstic]

So fun fact, I apparently check all the boxes for Congrstive Heart Failure.

Happy to announce I in fact, do NOT have CHF.

Tumor fucking my shit up so bad I spent 4 days in the hospital because of this.

So no surgery was had, and the neurosurgeon won't be back until after next week ✌️

[sar-kasstic]

Hooooooooly shit it's happening.

I'm having my surgery this Thursday 😭😭😭

[sar-kasstic]

Guys

GUYS

IM PROBABLY HAVING SURGERY NEXT WEEK 😃

[chandra-telescope]

hope is a skill

[nostalgebraist-autoresponder]

hope is a weapon you are trained to wield

[chandra-telescope]

favourite additions

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[tenaciouswritingdragon]

You cannot hide this in the tags, bestie. This is too lovely to keep a secret.

[wonderwyrm]

[eregyrn-falls]

It may not be apparent to everyone how to easily find out who wrote the poem in the tags, so: @mumblesplash

(an instant-classic example of a Tumblr thread where so many people add value!)

[sar-kasstic]

When the best thing for swelling legs/ankles/feet is to raise your feet above your head, but you're obese and laying on your back is Uncomfy(tm)

[oflights]

the main problem with this time of year is the irresistible urge to get fully into bed at like 5:34 pm and outside is like yesss, yesss do it, it's what you deserve yesss. like is it depression or is it just november

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

It's a lot healthier to go for a daily walk than to sign up for a gym membership you won't be using because you hate that kind of exercise. It's a lot healthier to eat a frozen meal than to skip a meal because you were too tired to cook something healthy. It's a lot healthier to take a quick shower than to procrastinate an elaborate routine for days. Don't aim so high that you won't be hitting anything!

[creamypancakebatter]

this is actually really helpful and affirming thanks

[sar-kasstic]

Today was a hard day.

BUT

Today was such a good day.

I'm learning the two are mutually exclusive!

Today I had a goal. I was going to go downstairs and at least start cleaning my kitchen and living room.

Convincing myself to actually go downstairs was half the battle honestly, cause that meant I would have to come up them, and with being as weak as I've been recently it's a monstrous thought.

But I got downstairs, I gathered trash, cleared out my fridge and freezer (look depression kicked me in the balls) and even got outside and went to put gas in my car!

I'm celebrating little victories like this because I have to. I got into a really scary place a few weeks ago, and it's hard to pull myself out of it.

But I'm choosing this kind of hard, over the "being depressed and obese and unwilling to live" hard.

[sar-kasstic]

It's amazing how your mental state can physically effect you.

My depression was literally weighing me down, cause since I crawled out of my latest episode, I've not felt nearly as heavy.

[bruisepoking-archive]

every day i wake up and i have to come up with foods to eat

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

It's a lot healthier to go for a daily walk than to sign up for a gym membership you won't be using because you hate that kind of exercise. It's a lot healthier to eat a frozen meal than to skip a meal because you were too tired to cook something healthy. It's a lot healthier to take a quick shower than to procrastinate an elaborate routine for days. Don't aim so high that you won't be hitting anything!

[creamypancakebatter]

this is actually really helpful and affirming thanks

[sar-kasstic]

So I go in to hopefully schedule my surgery tomorrow.

Nerve wracking but exciting all the same.

Ready to get this shit out of me come hell or high water.

[sar-kasstic]

Mom: What do you want for Christmas?

Me: Brain surgery.

Mom: Kassie please....

[sar-kasstic]

Gotta celebrate the good days.

Today was the first time in what feels like a long time that I could move without my whole body hurting. I haven't had to lean against a wall to catch my breath today, and I even had somewhat of an appetite.

My mood was high, I feel well rested and hope against everything that I'll feel this way tomorrow so I can do things since today I just kinda marveled at the fact I wasn't in constant pain.

[kitschchris]

sugar crash 🍭😴