Missing.
Im missing the old me. Talked to my colleague today. Talked about what is happening currently and why I decided to somehow lessen my time playing with social media. With a reason that on every post I see on facebook, its all about losing weight, how to be slim and clean eating. I got depressed and pressured. But I managed to stop thinking about it and be optimist. To a point that our conversation hit me hard. When she touched on how confident I was before. When I was as big as a refrigerator. When my weight was at it peak. When I feel confident walking around without thinking of what others gonna think about me. When I walk with my heads up and being in my most comfortable self. It hit me that now, I lost all that. Shouldn't I be more confident about myself now rather than before. Shouldn't I be proud that I lose more than what I expected? I need to stop having this kind of feeling. I need to tell myself that I should love myself and nothing gonna bring me down. Either by the eyes of people that keep looking at me or by the words uttered that bit every single piece of my self-esteem. I promise myself that I won't give up. And I shall never give up. Because give up is a sign that I am a weak person. But I'm not. 23:56pm 19APR17
