Cheating is a choice, not a mistake.
I havent’ been on tumbler in like for fucking for ever ! Becasue I couldnt’ access my email account . So let me bring you up to date . Last couple yeaers have been chaos !!! I’ve been throw so much . I havent’ had one honest guy who hasnt’ been loyal to me yet. The last time I hooked up with my ex boyfriend mike the baster got in engaged , and my dear friend hayden turneds out he was dating a bitch all this time . What is even the point of being in a realioniship . I was moring over this situation for at least a year and Im finaly getting out of my 3 months depression . My dating life , has changed randomly . I went to being single for 3 years to not fucking anyone too. The same old bullshit. Im not trying to be on the same wave any more. I want a realionship . Something serious as mudslides . I just got over my seasonal job . And I feel hella stressted out because all my bills are coming at once . And I kind of lost the guy of my dreams recently .On top of that my period was 50 days late. I dont know if it was a misccarage or what . But I do know this guy thinks’ Im low key crazy . It sucks, because Im okay with having hook up buddies .But this time , I caught feelings . I do not know what happen . May be because my funteral clock is now ticking.And Im compeletly beating my self up about this hook up because he was my exs’ best friend. I dont know what it is but why is it always the best friend of your ex boyfriend is the one who trys to save you .. Like take for instance sonny try to save me from hayden . I feel low key kind of stupid because I called out john for cheating . When it was not my place too. I’ve been cheated on by every single guy that my inscurecities has gotten to me , and john is actully a really good guy . His ex girlfriend that he cliamed at the time , was trying to start fights with me on twitter when it was not needed . Shes’ that type of person who is selfish and only wants other people when they dont want her . I guess , she saw how happy I was with john and compently split us up . I’ve become so devistated because of my past relasionship I called her out on twitter to the point I guess were all his family saw .. John really tried to make look good to his family from now seeing it on his point of view . I guess it really didnt dawn to me his family memebers really stocked his sigfnicant others or he was even talking about me to his family . I dont even rember people who we grew up with . I forget that we live in small communeity and that one night stand turned into braking the internet .I also; got a little bit upset because it felt like he was trying to hid me extra . But now I know why . Bitches are crazy . I was really upset for months and still am because being played is the worst feeling ever . It just sucks how I still want to talk to this guy extra .. all my friends are saying hes coming back I dont think so at all .And I have too; see his point of view as well . He just fucked his homie girl . I guess he wasnt’ ready to tell his homie yet . Drama yess in deed .. But that’s 411 with me . And I feel hell emberesed because I told this guy I have actual strong feelings him. I high key fucked up becasue it was too soon . He happend to come into my life when I was on cougph medican . LMFAO ..
