I slept for like 21 hours... I woke up and I can't move properly and got super sick <\3 (this isn't the first time I've slept so long either so it's weird that I feel this bad.)
I feel so blegh... I will reply later, when more alive and not throwing up :') <3
I definitely didn't do my best for you two... And I guess to others in general, too.
[gosh I forgot how to write and express myself already. (;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)]
It's actually kind of funny how New year's is making me reflect because I don't really have it in me to celebrate properly (and I didn't really celebrate last year either... But at least this time I'm not a shell of myself).
You two, however, really make me want to celebrate it and reflect on the year. (*´˘`*)♡
You two have been nothing but sweet and kind to me. Forgiving me for my low efforts, when I can't even do the bare minimum of what you deserve. Most people would vouch for you to have left me by now, since I don't return the same energy I receive.
I know I don't express it... I don't even come around enough to do something like that... But, the appreciation I have for you two is beyond fathomable... In a life where I find myself believing I can never have friends or people who will accept me with my behaviors or just as I am, (aside from the ones who have grown up with me since childhood, which are few, and still don't know me to such an unhinged extent),
you two prove me wrong.
I actually... Lol I actually got very teary eyed when I saw sugar's wrap up post... To know that there was no resentment, no anger but simply acknowledgement and even accolades and comfort... It just made me realised what beautiful people you two are... And I really am so grateful to you two...
I can never promise, but I do hope I improve this year. I want to try my best. I want to be better to the two of you, even if I can never pay the debt of kindness I owe...
You two mean a lot to me, seriously. So thank you, for dealing with me, for caring for me, for taking interest in me. Thank you for this year.
on this day 22 years ago, the world was blessed when you opened your eyes and took your first breath. i know that it's been a rough road for you to get here, and for that i'll always admire the strength and perseverance you've proven to have despite the obstacles life has thrown at you. i'm so grateful that the universe has allowed me to experience the wonderful gift of you and i hope that's something that i'll get to have forever~
it's hard to believe that two years have already passed by since we've known each other but at the same time, only two years have passed by? it feels like we've known each other for a lifetime already, but i suppose it's easy to feel that way when you meet your soulmate, huh? i'm a firm believer that one can have multiple soulmates, platonic or not, but each soul tie is unique and can't be replaced or replicated by another. i really and truly cherish our soulmate connection— it's one that feels safe and gentle, one that feels steady and unwavering despite the trials and tribulations we had to endure on the way to this point. it's because of those hard times that we faced and overcame together that our little purple string of fate grew stronger and tighter around our fingers. maybe we now have a purple rope of fate, or a purple leash... hehe sorry, i had to bring the leash back~ anyways, my point is that from the moment we began to really speak as us, as mari and zaf, you felt like home to me and i hope it always stays that way... it's not often that you meet your husband/wife while roleplaying on some hellsite like tumblr. it's truly a story to tell the kids and grandkids for generations to come~
now that all of the sappy stuff is out of the way, time to get silly and goofy up in here! i'm really refraining from using 100+ emojis while typing this because i want it to look nice... but then again, i know you'd want this to be written in true mari fashion so maybe from here on, i'll start bombarding this letter with emojis. 👀🤔😋🤭😎🥳🎀✨ okay, too much... i hope you take the day off work for your special day so that i can make you breakfast or lunch since we're both eternally sleeby gorls in bed and then we can spend the rest of the day laying outside in the sunlight while we take infinitely more naps~ ✨ or, since i know my cool ceo husband is always busy with important people things, maybe i'll surprise you at the office and not-so accidentally jam the copy machine on my way up... what a shame it would be to have to stay back after hours to get this darn thing fixed again, huh? 🤪 and oh, maybe the moonlight shining in from the windows of your office just gives you a certain ✨glow✨ and makes you look particularly magical and, gasp!, is that my red lipstick suddenly on your cheek? how did that get there? 👀 oh dear, we'll have to get rid of it before the maintenance people get here and see it! then again, they do work for you so who are they to poke their nose into your business, right? i'm not sure where this is going any more so, uh... i'm going to spend your birthday with you one way or another! ☝🏻 psst, am i still your secretary or have i retired early and now live as a housewife? the lore seems to have evolved without me realizing...
thank you for being such a lovely mumzie to wonyo, a first love and soulmate to renie, and an unfortunate subject of chisa's affection and obsession~ you've made my time here so fun and full of life, i don't regret anything because in the end it led us to each other and i wouldn't have it any other way...
i hope you have the loveliest day ever, because you are the loveliest husband ever and you deserve to feel loved and cherished on your special day~ i know you don't particularly enjoy big celebrations, especially for your birthday, but at the very least i hope that your friends and family treat you well and wish you a happy birthday. i hope that one day we can celebrate together in person, and maybe we'll even be lucky enough to bring the maid along ( hehe hi sugar 🫶🏻 ) some day~ i may not have the poetic power that you harness, i still read that valentine's poem you wrote and it makes me giggle-blush-hair twirl-cry-head in hands-hearts above head but hopefully this plus the second half of your birthday gift that i hopefully have completed by this day will suffice.
here is another jar full of "smooches" to keep at your bedside and your very own housewife apron because your recent baking feats have shown that you've earned it! 💪🏻
i had many aprons saved but i liked the green one the best because its a color i often associate you with~ since you always talk about reincarnating as a plant in your next life and just enjoying being outside in the sunshine, or enjoying fresh air, i think green is a suitable color for you! it reminds me of springtime where pretty flowers bloom and life is restored into the world, much like how you do the same to those who have the fortunate opportunity to cross paths with you~
i love you to the moon and back, always... i'm so happy that you're here and that i get to send this letter to you~ 💗
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