[scarsandkcals]

i love when google is like to reduce body fat focus on a deficiency of 300-700 calories. my bmr is 1395. so i need to eat between 700 and 1000 calories to lose weight. being short is a fucking scam.

[scarsandkcals]

even if i wanted to lose weight heathily i basically have to starve myself. so if i want to lose weight i need an eating disorder. if i want to maintain that weight i need to keep having an eating disorder. i ate 5 pieces of my homemade pizza last night with way too much cheese and bacon and i'm probably not going to lose weight now :/

[scarsandkcals]

i love when google is like to reduce body fat focus on a deficiency of 300-700 calories. my bmr is 1395. so i need to eat between 700 and 1000 calories to lose weight. being short is a fucking scam.

[scarsandkcals]

i'm gonna start tracking my day with food/exercise :) so here's yesterday

18 mar 2026:

breakfast: vanilla breakfast drink

lunch: oat bar

snack: yoghurt cup

dinner: two wraps with lettuce, carrot, cucumber, capsicum, chicken, cheese and kewpie mayo

worked out: for 20 minutes

steps: 8,174

notes: felt alot more energetic and awake at work from working out and had a better mood. struggled to fall asleep though, it took me two hours :/ felt less hungry at work and didn't feel like i was going to pass out

[scarsandkcals]

my main goal right now is to have a sustainable long term healthy diet, once the food noises stops and i'm in a better place with my relationship with healthy food, i will focus on portions and weight loss more intensely

[scarsandkcals]

i think i'm gonna keep eating as healthy as i can without tracking calories and walk home from work the days i can.

so as many vegetables, fruits, eggs, chicken, etc i can and if i don't lose any weight in 1-2 week i'll know i need to adjust something. unfortunately i'm gonna have to cook my chicken with olive oil because i have high cholesterol from medication, but i'm going to try cut out heavily processed foods, unnatural sugars, limit my dairy and focus on fruits and vegetables.

[scarsandkcals]

weigh the most i have in my entire life :/ 5kgs higher than my previous hw

[scarsandkcals]

i think i'm gonn weigh myself on monday. i 💩 twice today but thats because i ate alot LOL i had like 5 meals worth of food and my last ice cream😭

[scarsandkcals]

is it possible to lose weight without tracking calories? i literally can't get away with it with my boyfriend basically watching me all the time 😭 i'm trying to eat healthier instead (fruits, lots of veggies and protein, and i'm gonna try cut portions). also i'll probaly start skipping lunch (which rn is a muesli bar), but i need a bigger breakfast because i'm on my feet and doing 10k+ steps a day at my job :/

[scarsandkcals]

i hate that i have to be severely underweight to look truly skinny at my height. everyone tells me i'm skinny and that i'm not overweight. but they dont see whats under my clothes. fuck this

[scarsandkcals]

back again after 2 years ...

i thought i was done with this and recovered. every so often i want to replase but im a failure and can't. im weak. i can't take it anymore :/ fuck

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[scarsandkcals]

i cannaurt its either i relapse and cut myself and have to hide it from my boyfriend or relapse and start starving myself again bc i want to be under 100lbs . and then trying to hide it and suddenly stop eating around him . god kms

[scarsandkcals]

idk how many calories today, got a large chicken katsu on rice with japanese mayo and teriyaki sauce (safe food) which i eat half for lunch and dinner, im assuming around 600?

[scarsandkcals]

weighed myself this morning 😔 i weigh less than i thought i did completely naked and im bmi 19.9 💔💔 first gw is uust to get back to underweight bmi !!

[scarsandkcals]

430 cals 2day lmao

1 energy drink 2 poptarts

[scarsandkcals]

hi guys im back to relapse for the 3rd or 4th time 🙏

[scarsandkcals]

"well technically im the fattest ive ever been rn too"

my fwb: "the healthiest"

dying