nevermind.

I am my own ghost; haunting the memories I love most.

[remanence-of-love]

[scarscardsandink]

Lonely as in when I'm alone

I long for connection

For interaction

Even for a simple presence

Lonely as in while I'm in a room

That's full of other people

I still feel detached

I still don't feel a connection

Lonely as in I am ready

To give up trying

[scarscardsandink]

It's hidden.

It's woven & intricately knotted into everything

It hides in the dark

And in every corner there's a shadow

It is comfortable

Dwelling within you

Waiting inside the parts of you

You buried alive so many times

But keeps climbing out

[scarscardsandink]

[scarscardsandink]

[scarscardsandink]

[scarscardsandink]

[ether--net]

[abandonedandurbex]

[imposer]

[xanaxfarts]

[kyotoprotocols]

[raveezus]

⠀

[sonderin]

by lexts

[scarscardsandink]

[theunseenocean]

As much as I wanted it to be you, you really showed me how much you didn't want it to be me, and I need to accept it.

[paper-wounds]

— Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

[scarscardsandink]

I don’t even feel empty though

I just feel like every positive feeling

I’ve ever had

Was literally grasped by something

And then violently ripped out of my body

My pain has been manifesting

As a physical ache

But not like one wounds aftermath

It’s a break or injury

That it started tearing

But it never stopped

Like a stab that is still making its way through my body

Or burn that is still in the fire continuously burning through me

I don’t know think I can feel like this much longer and still keep going