And I would beg you to see
Where I was going to become
But you refuse to believe
That I am more than a servant
That I was going to be a chapter in your story
How could I get you to see
You would still believe I was dumb
I couldn’t convince you of my truth
My ray of colours, at the heart of me
It was all hidden from your sight
All you want is to have me in your own image
But I compel you to look away
To renounce me in your name
Oh God, please look at me
Look at this ridiculous garment I have put on
Just to fulfil the horrifying demands you ask of me
From my atrocious body to my dissolving spirit
I came to you in all shades of anger and pain
You look at me as if I repulse your senses
My hands, covered in dirt from
Searching all of your soul
For some comfort or peace of mind
But when we are done, you leave me to put on my clothes by myself
You don’t clean your marks off my body
It was yours a second ago
Completely unraveled under your touch
But you can’t bear seeing how I get you off me
It is like you feel some right to get to know some parts of me and then discard the rest
I am never whole when we are together
Just a body part on your bed sheets
I wish I didn’t accept this from you
I wish I would never accept this from anyone ever again
But I know I need someone to see that condemned part of me
To touch it and reach out to it
So I don’t forget where I put it away
But when you grow up on love that condemns lust
You have no other route but shame and desecration of our human desire to be wanted and needed in that way
Sometimes I wish things could be different
But it just wouldn’t be as fun!
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