S.O.S.
Today I sat in a bathtub full of hot water until it got ice cold. The dried tears on my face were washed away as I slowly sunk myself under
Constant thoughts and tears for hours
Constant pain and worthless forever
Wasted time has come and gone
Too many years, so many months, each and every day I have drown
Drowning
I am drown by my own self
Too often do I laugh in my the best effort to silence my cries
I'm screaming inside, but I'll just smile
I do my best to hide this illness
Stillness
If only I could stop for a second, just a second. Take a deep breath and just
let
go
Let go of everything
Oh the things I would do to forget...
Take a pencil eraser to the memory of my brain
Make me forget everything in my veins
Make me feel reason to wake up each day
I'd do anything to take these feelings away
There are too many things I wish I could change
My appearance, my past, my mind and my ways
Take me back to when happiness wasn't a chore
When it was true and real
When it wasn't a war
So help me God
Help my soul
Pull me up and out of this hole
I'm stuck far down
Too deep in the ground
Cannot get out alone
Send help, I've drowned
