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your right, im always sad

[seascripter]

and you said yourself, that im falling towards the sun

[seascripter]

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well, maybe there is a bit of hope for me after all?

[seascripter]

(rant) i just want to feel equally returned love. i always have to put in effort or everything for one person and its like im tired of giving my all to someone who dosent give a shit about me yet, i cant seem to let go, if its for awhile or only a small amount i time i care too much about people and i dont want certain things to end thats why because no matter what im always finding a reason to stay. whether its because i get attention that i miss from freshman year or if its because i feel a certain way about the person and i cant seem to find the courage to let go, im always staying. and it sucks because deep down i know i want to leave and i know i deserve better than this… i really do deserve better but yet i cant seem to put myself first. i know ill always love other people more thab my own self because i have so much self hatred. i hate the way i look half of the time and wish i could be as beautiful or as good looking as other boys but i know i cant. anyways lets not get off here, i just wanna feel that one person loves me the say way i love them, atleast once romantically. maybe the harder i try i can start to get that feeling? who knows thanks for reading.

[seascripter]

(rant) i feel as if i always linger for the feeling of love, i always try to fill a certain void i know is hard for me to find because of my appearance, i wish i was as good looking as him or be as good as him. time and time again i always find myself sad or depressed and honestly i dont know when ill actually be happy again. most of my happiness comes from relationships, yes i love my friends but who dosent want to feel the feeling of returned love from one person to another? thats almost a dream for me. and i haven’t felt that feeling since freshman year honestly that girl from 3 years, now almost 4 years ago fucked me up BAD. im always going tonbe ugly im always going to be that one rebound and or that one boy who people talk to for 3 days then leave. and it sucks but i will always have love for everyone no matter how dirty i was done, because at the end of the day i have a caring heart and i know how it feels to not be loved.

[seascripter]

i told you i loved you just outside your moms place

[loveandcaring01]

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be my valentine, come on spell it out

[spencer-44ballzz]

IIIII DONT WANNA TAKE YOUR PRECIOUS TIIIMMEEE‼️‼️CAUSE YOUR SUCH A PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY FACEE😞BUT YOU TURNED INTO A PRETTY BIG WASTE OF MY TIMEE🤯

[seascripter]

nikes a song by frank ocean is one of my favorite songs of all time, now when you think of it, we all want “nikes” but not actually.. more like you want something in general. Now, that thing you want, you dont want a rip off of it.. you want the authentic thing, so for example “nikes”. but in the end of the song we can tell that frank just wants this girl. For me my “nikes” is a person that would make me feel that i have reached nirvana. A person who I feel as if I can do anything with or be anywhere with without feeling embarrassed. I dont think ive felt that feeling in awhile and thats all i ever wanted. Now in the end of the song he say’s “i may be younger, but ill look after you.” and “im not him but ill mean something to you.” Those words are the most impactful words ive heard in my lifetime and it makes me cry everytime i hear it. Thank you Frank.

[seascripter]

As summer came and went, our friends took flight

We spent a year collecting all the feathers they left behind

Maybe I was wrong, maybe I should stay

But maybe I was lying to myself

And maybe everything will be okay

But, no matter what I say

Our futures lie in the North Migration

[seascripter]

big boys dont cry

[deplorabillis]

Starry Cat - Bye