Call Me Bast

Sebastian Eaddy, submissive Married to Phoenix Winters Level 1, 0 points I found paradise and it crumbled around my ears.

[sebastianeaddy]

Hiding - Open

[nikolaexaugustine]

Nico frowned and moved to the ground and closer to Sebastian, reaching out and putting a gentle hand on his arm.  He was obviously in distress and hurting.  He’d not seen him in a panic attack but Collin and Phoenix had told him a bit about them.  He couldn’t help wonder if this was that or something close.  He reached with his other hand and stroked Bast’s hair.  “Shhh, hey it’s okay.  You don’t have to do anything that you don’ want to do.  I’m here, don’t worry.”

[sebastianeaddy]

Bast felt Nico’s hand on his arm, and he suddenly didn’t want to be alone anymore, he wanted to be held.  He’d wanted to be held the whole time, but at the same time hadn’t wanted anyone to see him.  He hated the feeling of eyes on him even when he wasn’t panicking and crying, and when he was like this it was hard not to think that anyone who saw him would be judging him.  But at least Nico was a friend, and Bast didn’t know him well yet but he was pretty sure he trusted him, at least a little.  The sub turned and tipped towards Nico, practically falling into his lap, hiding his face in the man’s chest.  “I’m s-sorry..”

[sebastianeaddy]

Hiding - Open

[nikolaexaugustine]

Nico had been waiting for the demo; he knew they both weren’t happy about it and hoped that a familiar, friendly face would help.  He waited and when it went past time Nico’s worry grew even more.  Able to speak to Collin and Phoenix briefly, he went on the lookout for Bast.  He didn’t want to seem too anxious but there was urgency to the looking.  He moved from the last place Nix had seen him and starting moving through the halls and then headed to the stairs and headed down.  He nearly stepped on on Bast before he saw him in the corner.  “Bast?”  he said stooping down closer to him.  “What’s wrong, what happened?  We were all worried about you.”

[sebastianeaddy]

Bast heard Nico’s footsteps before he knew who it was, and he shoved himself farther under the stairs, trying to be quiet, not wanting to be noticed.  When he heard Nico’s voice, he let out a shaky sob.  He didn’t look up at the Dominant.  He couldn’t.  He felt so guilty and he was still so anxious, in the after effects of his panic attack.  Bast hid his face in his knees, curling up as small as possible.  “I can’t, I can’t,” he sobbed helplessly.

[sebastianeaddy]

Alone time || Collin/Sebastian

[tristanaramis]

“Yeah, a baby and a boarder,” he said with a sigh. “A lot of prep work going into it. But things will ease up eventually, I promise.” Colling shifted his hold and started to trail his fingers back and forth over Bast’s back. “You can see me when you visit Daisy. And if you want, you can come down and eat with me at lunch, and dinner when its time.” Though he knew that wasn’t exactly what Bast was wanting. but they would have to make due. “And I’m yours once I clock out and in the mornings before I go in.”

[sebastianeaddy]

Bast nodded, his eyes drifting closed due to the feeling of Collin’s fingers on his back.  He wasn’t sleepy, but that just felt so nice.  “Will I get to come see the baby when she’s born, Sir?”  He lifted his head enough to press a kiss to Collin’s jaw. 

[sebastianeaddy]

Alone time || Collin/Sebastian

[tristanaramis]

Collin smiled a bit as Bast came and settled against him. The man was so skinny and so light, and worried Collin endlessly. He tried and would keep trying to help him. To get him eating, to get him better. Healthy, but it was a struggle. A struggle he accepted.

“Just tired from work and lonely.” He kissed Bast’s temple, then brushed his lips against Bast’s. “Been working a lot, and missing you and Phoenix. Might be a bit worried about you too, but then so is Daisy. She’d mighty worried about her favorite human.”

[sebastianeaddy]

Sebastian kissed Collin back before tucking his head into the Dom’s shoulder.  “I’m sorry,” he whispered.  He knew Collin was more worried about him than he said.  It was obvious in the lingering looks the Dom gave him.  “I miss you when you work so much.  I know it’s busy though.  Luke said there’s a baby coming.”  He nuzzled against Collin’s jaw.  “Wish I could have you more, though, Sir.”

[sebastianeaddy]

Alone time || Collin/Sebastian

[tristanaramis]

Collin was kicked back on a lounger with his feet bare and his sturdy cotton shirt with the sleeves rolled up past his elbows and having been left open after work. Even as the night cooled he stayed like that, just taking in the night sky. He did shift his eyes from stars to Bast, though. Watching him fidget a moment before reaching out to him. Taking on his his hands as best he could.

“Come here, baby boy. I really need you in my arms right now.”

[sebastianeaddy]

Bast nodded, still biting his lower lip as he moved towards Collin.  If he hadn’t been so slim, there might not have been room for him on the chair with the Dom, but as it was, he fit.  He squeezed himself in on one side, curling into Collin’s body and laying his head on Collin’s shoulder, while his legs came up in front of him, over Collin’s lap, knees up near his chest.  “Is something wrong, Sir?” he asked in a small voice.  “Or is it... me?” 

[sebastianeaddy]

Alone time || Collin/Sebastian

Sebastian had his hands tucked into the sleeves of his baggy hoodie as he came out through the sliding glass doors onto the patio.  He came over to Collin and stood near him, not looking up at the Dom.  Sebastian had been very quiet since last weekend.  He’d barely talked to Collin or Phoenix, hardly left the villa, hadn’t eaten well, and had spent most of his time in the guest room or the back of the blanket fort, reading or sleeping.  Bast chewed on his lower lip as he fidgeted with the sleeves of his hoodie, waiting for Collin to speak.  Even with the assurance that he wasn’t in trouble, at least at the moment, Bast was nervous about what Collin might say.

@domcollinwebb

[sebastianeaddy]

PM: No, you're not. I want to spend time alone with you. I want to hold you for a bit.

PM: Oh.  Okay.  Yes, Sir.  I’m coming.

[sebastianeaddy]

PM: Can you come here for a moment, Bast? I'm out on the patio.

PM: ...Yes, Sir.  Am I in trouble?

[sebastianeaddy]

Hiding - Open

[babypiercerpg-blog]

Baby was on a treasure hunt. Not an actual treasure hunt, but in his mind it might as well have been. After a late night rescue by the new paramedic Wren, Baby was quite taken with the idea of rescuing. He had realized the day before that sometimes small lizards that were all over the island would find their way inside and after freeing one of the little guys, he wanted to save them all. So he was searching all the corners of the Estate building for them. When he came to the stairs he heard something and smiled thinking that he had another rescue to do. “Don’t worry. I’ll help you get home.” He scoot in under the stairs and quickly realized that it was a person not a lizard at all. His face dropped when he saw the scared boy curled up and obviously trying to hide. “Are you ok?” 

[sebastianeaddy]

Sebastian had his knees folded up in front of him and his arms around them.  There were clear wet spots on the knees of his jeans and the sleeps of his sweatshirt.  He’d been here a while, his panic had gradually faded, but he’d been crying off and on the whole time.  “Yeah, I- I’m fine....”  He tried to get rid of the tear tracks on his cheeks with his sleeve, but it was a pointless endeavor.

[sebastianeaddy]

I’m booored.

[nikolaexaugustine]

Nico was glad to see the smile on Bast even if it was a small one, it was something.  He wanted to reach out and take his hand or put his arm around him but he wasn’t sure just how much touching he wanted from him.  And he didn’t want to make him nervous.  “I can certainly understand that too, sometimes we just want to stay inside to ourselves.  You’re dealing with a lot, so it’s understandable. I’m sure it’s better being with Phoenix and Collin there too.”

[sebastianeaddy]

Sebastian gave a small shrug.  “Yeah, it’s better than being in the dorm.” His voice was soft, his posture hunched slightly like he was making up for his height.  “Being around a lot of people, um... it makes me anxious.  I mean, a lot of things do, I guess, but crowds are the worst.  And sometimes new people.  And, um... I hate feeling like people are looking at me or watching me.  So I just... avoid them, I guess.  If I stay inside, it’s just people I like.”

[sebastianeaddy]

Hiding - Open

Sebastian had tried to go to his demo.  He really had.  He’d been trying to come up with ways to get out of it all weekend, but he couldn’t think of any, so when the day came, he’d honestly tried.  He’d told Phoenix that he would meet him there, he just wanted to be alone for a bit, and that hadn’t been a lie.  Only, now he guessed it was.  Because he hadn’t shown up.  He’d gotten halfway there, panicking worse with each step, until finally he felt like he couldn’t breathe anymore.  He couldn’t do this.  He couldn’t go onstage.  It was too much.  Sebastian turned down the nearest hallway, taking corners at random, until finally he wound up at the bottom of a stairwell.  He shoved himself back into a corner, under the stairs, where no one could see him, and tried to breathe.

[but-the-library-of-alexandria]

the thing about writing fantasy stories is that language is so based on history that it can be hard to decide how far suspension of disbelief can carry you word-choice wise - what do you call a french braid in a world with no france? can a queen ann neckline be described if there was no queen ann? where do you draw the line? can you use the word platonic if plato never existed? can you name a character chris in a land without christianity? can you even say ‘bungalow’ in a world where there was no indian language for the word to originate from? is there a single word in any language that doesn’t have a story behind it? to be accurate a fantasy story would be written in a fantasy language but who has the time for that

[a-kite-dancing-in-a-hurricane]

Tolkien had the time apparently

[misbehavingmaiar]

LIsten. Linguistics Georg, who invented over 10,000 conlangs each day, is an outlier and should not have been counted. 

[languageoclock]

Hey, I was wondering how are you supposed to tell if you're fluent in a language?

you will receive a magical scroll, tied with a bright green satin ribbon and printed on shimmering paper, smelling faintly of clover, from Benny “The Irish Polyglot” Lewis

[frozen-misinterpretations-deact]

[sebastianeaddy]

no no no no

[alphalariot-blog]

why not? you get stage frite? what did you used to do at the acadamy?

[sebastianeaddy]

I hate them, but they’re not always this bad....

[sebastianeaddy]

no no no no

[connorowen-blog]

Bast?

[sebastianeaddy]

I can’t do the demo, Sir.  I can’t, I don’t think I can do it.

[sebastianeaddy]

no no no no

[alphalariot-blog]

woah why are you so upset?

[sebastianeaddy]

I don’t think I can do this demo.