Serenity

BORN IN A WRONG WORLD.

[quotemadness]

How do we forgive ourselves for all the things we did not become?

Doc Luben (via quotemadness)

[secretlytelekinetic]

Little Girl

Once upon a time, there’s this girl who believes that everything will be fine, she just needs to persevere and endure it all. Since she was little she tried her best to excel to bring people back in her life and to make them like her. She gained recognitions and honor by being good at everything. She gained happiness by seeing the people she wants to like her being so supportive and recognized her. But that’s all there is to it, nothing more. They didn’t really came back into her life. She grow up living to that expectation, just persevere and they’ll be back. One day, she found herself in isolation but nobody even noticed that she’s missing. She’s trapped in a dark corner of an alley, and shadows are lurking. No light is coming through. She believed that all of her perseverance will give good results and people will come and get her. Nobody came. All her energy already left her, she’s tired of waiting for people to come. The shadows started whispering to her, that deep inside she knew that this is going to happen, that no one’s ready to fight for her. She knew that no one’s coming for her. She’s always the one trying to fix people in her life. Now she’s too tired to fix herself. She knew this will happen, but she can’t blame herself for expecting. Now, she’s still in that dark alley. Trying to cope up with the situation and befriending the shadows. No one’s coming for her. She must face everything on herself and stop being stubborn. She cried and cried for days, weeks, months. She just let it all out. Now, she’s trying to find what happiness really is. With no one around, no expectations, no disappointments. I hope she finds her true self and her happiness.

[secretlytelekinetic]

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i never expected this i never expected anything in return. however, it still hurts knowing no one will ever fight for me.

who am I kidding? it’s been like this right from the start why am I even surprised? there’s nothing new. i am tired of fighting to win i am so tired of proving my worth. i expected this but it still hurts.

[jrockmp3]

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☔ 愛藍傘 歌ってみた〘✻ かろりん〙

Covered by かろりん (Karorin) Composed by エキゾチックかまたに Illustration by ミハル

[secretlytelekinetic]

Can’t get enough of her voice. 😍😍😍💕

[secretlytelekinetic]

It’s been years and I still love this song and the voice of the singer is just soothing. This is complete healing. <3

[secretlytelekinetic]

To Move Forward

Hi, I’m 21 and lost.

When I was younger, I always thought that I got all things figured out, it will be a rough road but I know that I will eventually go to the path I always wanted to take. However, here I am, a 21 years old thinking about how stuck I am.

I think that most people do experience this kind of life crisis at least once during their whole life. Not knowing what to do next, or doubting if you really want to pursue the field you picked, or asking if you are really happy about what you are doing.

Today is no ordinary day for me. I started with my day watching a Kpop group documentary, then opened my Facebook page and just scrolled through my friend’s posts, and eventually searched ‘I’m 21 and I don’t know what to do with my life’ on Google. I opened about 8-10 links and I can relate to some articles. Unfortunately, after all those reading, I am still unhappy.

The discontent and doubt that I am feeling started to grow. It’s very uncomfortable that I thought I might go insane if I can’t vent my emotions out. It’s quarantine, the year of covid19, and I am extremely worried for my life. This year is just pure madness.

We all have high hopes for our future and things may change along the way, moving forward we must know that change isn’t a bad thing. After all those sentences, I am still stuck. However, I need to move forward. We all don’t know what tomorrow holds. Maybe I’ll get a brilliant idea tomorrow and it will lead me to success, or I will win a lottery tomorrow.

To finish this off, let’s move forward. I need to move forward. I may not know what that forward may do for me but I need to go on with my life.

[secretlytelekinetic]

You promised you will never hurt anymore but it makes you feel alive.

Who knows, scars never really fades away just like how you imagine.

Eases the anxiety you feel for the thoughts you thought are harmless.

The lust for life is never this toxicating, how naive.

Pain is just so good that it reminds you to keep on fighting.

Fails to conceal the past scars you expected to be gone a long time ago.

To bleed is to feel better, blood really has a pretty color.

Be rapid at wiping the tears that you kept on holding back.

Here is the pointy thing, both an armor and a weapon.

[secretlytelekinetic]

These past few days, crying was a life saver. I could have lose myself if I didn’t cry my heart out whenever I want to.

[secretlytelekinetic]

Physical pain eases emotional pain.

[letsflytoasiarenata]

“Didn’t you tell me about your mother and father? You said your father is normally serious and old-fashioned but he loves your mother especially dearly, When it is raining, he won’t even allow her socks and shoes to get wet.”

[ari2pmam]

Three lives, three worlds, the pillow book / Eternal love of dream

[the21stcenturynomad]

Dijun’s first taste of jealousy 

Picking flowers for Fengju 

Seeing her hugging another man (basically still him)

Walking in the rain (classic heart break scene)

Dripping….

…but still returns back to Fengju 😂 ❤

[the21stcenturynomad]

Jealous Dijun aftermath 

Donghua whining *cough cough*

“My head is dizzy”

Fengju: “I like you so deeply, how can I fall for another one” 

That smile of Donghua‘s  🙈 🙈 🙈

[mimibtsghost]

V WANTED TO HOLD NAMJOON BUT-

[secretlytelekinetic]

Blood

As its fine sharp needles brushes my skin, relief is what I feel. Naive, never thought this would happen, happiness can also be pain.

[books-n-quotes]

“Sometimes you are going to miss a person who was an almost to you. And feel sad because there is no name for that feeling. You just feel it in a way that makes you tired to your very bones.”

— Nikita Gill, Almost Feelings (via books-n-quotes)

[thepersonalquotes]

[books-n-quotes]

“Every time she tries to leave, the boy stops her, begging like a fool. And so she always returns, no matter how often she leaves or how far she goes, appearing soundlessly behind him and covering his eyes with her hands, spoiling for him anyone who could ever come after her.”

— Nicole Krauss, The History of Love (via books-n-quotes)