Not for nothing but Sitting back in my room alittle frustrated so i decided to pray, half way in i decided to write it down, now i thought i would share it. Father, I don’t understand and I don’t know why, I don’t understand and I don’t know why. Father, I don’t understand and I don’t know why. Why is it that the simplest things seems so difficult for me and somethings seem so unattainable, why is it that time has always turned out to be, my greatest adversary. Its not that I desire to control time, well at least not all the time, just some of the time, maybe manipulate it at times. This feeling is not that im inadequate, I know that everything I do is some what significant. But I still don’t understand how or why. My mind has never been so simply complex, I strive to walk my own path to success. But it all just seems like im standing still, watching countless lives just go by. In my own world but nothing I see through my eyes could ever be shared. Which always leaves me unsatisfied. I have not struggled, I have not fallen, Im neither poor nor rich. I believe its all perspective. Instead I identify my obstacles depth, and passively progressed, through each object or have I just been lucky enough to bend around them. For what ever reason of being blessed, I am in still in your debt, but yet, Ive come to find I have created an enemy with “time”. My views, my goals, my wants and needs, my heart, my anger, love and my very existence hangs by a thread because of time. My only intent in this life is happiness, stability and success in the most simplest form, never short of nothing or lacking something, but it has always came at a bad time. Father, I don’t understand and I don’t know why, you choose to answer everything with time.