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#thank god #for my session later today #ive been journaling my feelings #since last week when I spoke to her #I feel rather numb at times #ive been feeling upset #rather sad ig #but ive been good a distraction #but then again #it doesn’t help much #bc im just putting it off #I wish I didn’t hate myself #I wonder what it feels to have grown up #in a home where you weren’t put down #and your parents actually gave a fuck #about your feelings #and not hurting you like you wouldnt #see hurt a loved one #then I wonder why I can’t fully heal #maybe I do need to move out #but it’s so hard in the economy #I don’t want to stess about bills and whatever #fuck #I feel like I just keep regressing back #I keep ending up at square one #but I don’t want to negate all the effort ive put #in finally getting atleast a bit better #im just so conflicted #and exhausted #wanting to read some comfy ficts with my favs but

koiagain

I feel So Cringe whenever I express interest in anything You guys can shoot me if you want idk

tonight was good! I wish I enjoyed it a little more though, nothing on Louis i think it’s just me 🥹

#I did love that he played my two fav off the new album #but I still felt meh about it #stupid mood

hopefully tonight’s concert can help me forget about what happened before leaving for it

#my parents have no filter #it’s so ugh

forgot how it felt to cry to sleep … it’s been a good minute

#woke up feeling like shit #and was it reminded of things again #I texted my therapist already #let’s see if I can see her next week #I already know if I let this un treated I’ll spiral #and well who knows what that will look like

fuck.. I unlocked a lot of feelings just now and memories I didn’t want to remember again.

#Now im bawling my eyes out #sigh #guess I’ll be seeing my therapist earlier than anticipated #I’ll be scheduling next week

tw: fatphobia

sooo I didn’t know how much some of these videos/comments affected me until I had a talk with my therapist last week. Mind you, comments weren’t directed towards me but it gives you a general idea of how someone would view me. so I guess you could say I took it personal to an extent.

ive said this from time to time but the fatphobia reeks so bad now in days. Usually the comments just make me eye roll and get me a little riled up, it’s really annoying to see.

when I saw my therapist i didn’t realize the level into which it actually made me feel. I cried to her trying to explain how dehumanizing/disheartening it was to see how a lot of people view us, and it didn’t even matter if you were pretty faced looking, as long as you have a fat body you are still considered the bottom of the barrel, scum. the comments are so backhanded it’s disgusting. (one of them being “you have potential”)

I think it’s partly still why I still struggle to accept myself because growing up, this has always been “the norm” as much as this new generation tries to break away from this, it seems like this will never die. it’s really exhausting.

#rant #im just tired at times #while I’ve learned to cancel the noise most of the time #it still hurts to see all these other women #and others get torn down #just for existing #evil is rampant now in days #the lack of empathy is astounding #why can’t we be seen as a human #we bleed the fucking same #why do you hate us sm?

ru1n3r

i’ve spent 6 entire months doing NOTHING

#Yeah 🫩

forever our live version of tooru oikawa <33

#oikawa is really is beloved by him haha #in my eyes no one could ever play oikawa to a t #than asuma-san! He is literally him!!

looking at this art really makes believe hajime is a messy EATERRR 🤭

#SOMEONE PRY HIM AWAY FROM ME #I KNOW WE’VE ESTABLISHED HIRO BEING AN EATER #BUT SECOND PLACE GOES TO HAJIME #HE EATS PUSSY SO GOOD #🤭🤭🤭

shoyo really put him to work 😂😭

#he still looks so pretty 😍😍

happy birthday to my glorious king/my pretty princess

#TOORU DAYYYYY #THE BIG OLE 32 #HE IS UNC STATUS

ARGENTINA IS GONEEEE!! BYEEEEEE

losers for the World Cup and against Japan

#a day before oikawa’s birthday too lmfaooo #sorry king #but this country needed a humble 😭💀

prttiswt

bf!iwaizumi hajime x biceps obsessed!gf!reader

#yeahhhhhhh #she real for that #I would toooooo #🫦🫦🫦🫦#dude it’d be so hard not to jump his bones everyday #FUCKKKKKK #hajime iwaizumi #you absolute #Greek god #😩😩😩😩😩#oooo daddy

I will never get over how certain white women make me feel… small… they kinda have this authority aura that makes me feel inferior af… and idk why that is but this is why I don’t fuck with (some) white women…

#😭😭😭😭#I hate how it makes me feel

daydreams-of-youu

waking up in the morning and delaying opening your eyes just long enough to allow yourself to imagine that your fictional soulmate is in the kitchen making you tea/coffee or in the bathroom getting ready for the day... you allow yourself to imagine the pad of his footsteps, the clank of dishes and the sound of running water... maybe an occasional muffled grunt or yawn... then, when you think you're perfectly ready to lull back into sleep, an unexpected press of lips against your forehead and a raspy "it's time to get up, love." and so, you finally open your eyes.

but there is only silence and you, alone in your bed.

#WAIT— someone Kirk me #im fucking sickkkkkk #what the actual fuck #??!?#did you atleast kiss the brick before you chucked it at me???#im sad AGAIN #oh I hate it here #so badddddd #💔💔💔💔

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