Making Mosaics with Pieces of Tragedy

My search for identity, purpose, and recovery

[selahserenity]

So, I know this is going to sound all sorts of messed up and weird, but I just kind of needed to talk about it. I feel myself falling back into my eating disorder behaviors. And the screwed up thing is, I desperately want it. Somehow, in my mind, losing weight = life getting better. And I want things to get better.

[selahserenity]

I know I’m heading for a fall.

And I don’t really care. 

[alienmeg-blog]

*signs a legal document with a glitter gel pen*

[selahserenity]

I don’t know where to turn anymore

[onlytwitterpics]

[selahserenity]

I’m so depressed lately. Substituting Nyquil for my regular meds (which I can’t refill until Tuesday, because someone who has a Doctorate can’t do math), and I’m actually scaring myself with my frame of mind. 

[cervicks-deactivated20141013]

not killing myself is a personal achievement but you cant really brag about that at dinner parties

[selahserenity]

I was seriously asked tonight if I was pregnant. 😠

[selahserenity]

Having a rough night. Could really use some encouragement.

[t33j]

[sunwomb]

Cognitive Restructuring for Anxiety

[beetroots-blog-deactivated20181]

oh wow

[lunalab-deactivated20151030]

really nice to see this, this is how i deal with unwanted thoughts/impulses and it has worked wonders for me. it’s the only thing that’s worked.

[selahserenity]

Reblogging so I can find it again

[selahserenity]

While waiting for dinner, I am working on my personal Thanksgiving tradition - watching the Thanksgiving episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

"It's a sham with yams. It's a yam sham."

[selahserenity]

Pillow hog.

[dawnrie-face]

[babblingbrookanimations]

dont give children’s coloring books to college students

[queenstravelingdarling]

HEATHENS!!!!!

[selahserenity]

Teaching Pumpkin proper posture.

[babyanimalgifs]

[jellie-bells]

My therapist told me something meaningful yesterday, she said “It’s important to remember that when you’re depressed you have to nurse yourself and be extra gentile towards yourself. Just like an athlete wouldn’t break an ankle then force themselves to run that ankle. They rest as it heals and do not think “I am a failed athelete” they think, “right now something isn’t working so i’ll take care of myself until it does.“ 

Just like a broken bone, depression can change the way your daily life plays out, and pushing yourself too hard and getting frustrated when you don’t feel better is just like trying to run on that broken ankle and getting frustrated when it doesn’t heal.

[moonlight69]

Read this. Then read it again. And then save it and read it over and over when you are depressed.

[selahserenity]

I need a 12 hr nap