As much as it pains me to do this, I think I'm going to have to leave the roleplay. School is starting tomorrow and it's my senior year. I can't slack like I have in the past. All my grades this year depend on my college so I have to strive to do my best. And I know that rping won't help. I know this from experience, trust me. Last year, in the last trimester, I did so shitty on everything. You wouldn't believe the grades I got. Mostly B's and C's because I paid more attention to some fantasy rping world than real life. And that won't cut for this year. If I want to be on my parent's shit list, which I don't, I gotta focus on school.
And I'm going to be honest here. Roleplaying feels like a chore. I get so many hate anons here on a daily basis that it doesn't make rping enjoyable anymore. First, it was my activity, which I picked up because I was slacking, and just when I thought everything was all good, the cliquey thing started. I feel like no matter what I do here, I won't please anyone. There's always something someone has to pick apart about me and I don't like feeling that way. If it's not this, it's that, and to say at the least, it gets annoying and tiring. And plus, ever since that incident, I've been feeling kinda unwelcome. I post starters and some people dodge them.. That's how bad it is. I figured I'd give it a shot at staying, figured everyone would build a bridge and get over it with no hard feelings, but apparently, I was wrong. Plus, everyone wants me to leave, so. So yeah, it's not one reason, it's a bunch. Mainly because of school, but yeah.
Anyways, I'm literally tearing up while typing this. This roleplay holds the most memories. Some good, some bad.. Most perfect. I've been in this what, nine months? Ten months? Like damn. That's the longest I've ever been in an rp. I'm literally going to miss every single one of you. If it wasn't for this rp, I wouldn't be friends with half the people I call my best friends now. And it's all thanks to you guys. I've met some of the best people here and it's all just.. amazing. Though I don't want those friendships to end, so feel free to message me on AIM sometime. If you think of me randomly, if my name pops up somewhere because Heaven and it's in a million songs, IM me at xwalkslikerain. Because chances are, I'll be thinking of you too. I swear to god, I'll cry happy tears if you do. I don't bite, I literally love anyone that IMs me because loner life. But yeah.
It's so hard for me to do this, considering everything I've went through here. This literally shaped me into being a better rper. Not even kidding. Like, wow. I know some of you guys hate me or whatever, but just know, I love you all. From the bottom of my heart. I'm sorry it had to end on this note, that incident being the last impression I have on you, but eh. Remember me for the good times. Remember me for being the dumbass that I am, not that. Because what I did, what I said.. That's far from the real me.
I hope the next Selena you guys get is active as fuck on her. Because I know that if I keep her, that won't be me. And you guys deserve an active and perfect Selena because she's like the queen. Hell, I know whoever will play her next will do her more of a justice than I ever did.
Wow, this is getting long and I can't see what I'm typing because the tears are blurring my eyes. I'm an emotional shit, guilty as charged. But all good things come to an end, right? Think of this as a see you later or until next time or something. I'm sure when things slow down for me and after this whole thing drifts off, I'll join again because I'll miss you all too much. But until then. Peace. It was good while it lasted. I love you all and I'll miss you so so so so so much. x69, even. Remember: IM me. I'll most likely be on there when I get some free time.
Okay, I'll shut up now. Bye, flawless people.
