Cups of Tea

[wreck]

[self2self]

I love you but I must quit you

I really miss the feeling of having you around, having somebody to hold tight when life doesn’t treat you right

Whenever I see those stories from my friends who have boyfriends that do long distance with them, it really makes my heart ache

Some part of me just wished for you

But other parts of me acknowledge that you won’t come back, so maybe giving up and letting go is a better option

Coffee and cigarettes

[self2self]

There’s not a single night that I stopped thinking about you. My mind always wanders back to us. I don’t know if that’s a curse or what. I don’t know why I still care about you, I still wonder how’s your life, but you know what. I really need to stop thinking of you because I doubt you think of me. You tell me you’re happy, this is the life you want, yeah maybe it’s the truth, a perfectly sculpted truth that I would want to lie myself to believe in just so I could let you go. So yeah, I’m totally believing that you don’t want me back. So that I don’t want you back anymore.

For blue skies

The funeral

[self2self]

When people ask why we broke up, I’ll give a shallow reason for them: because we can’t do long distance. It’s just like what they expect of us anyway, even if they hear the twisted truth, it becomes their definition of truth.

[self2self]

Not the type of person who gets angry when you go out with your friends, like I’m always for it. But you never put me first even when I put you first

[self2self]

Leaving

Feels funny. Somethings I can’t hold on to forever, really sucks with the single life. I thought he was someone I could count on but well reality hits hard. No one stays forever. People leave. And you’re the only one left behind.

I love Nathan & Haley together. It’s not just shopping them, or thinking they’re my OTP. But it’s just looking at how they persevere through so many trials and things that could’ve broken them apart, yet they come back stronger every time. I just hope that this is just a season for me. A season 4. But at the end of my season 4, Naleu gets back together.

What’s my wish this year? I won’t say anything drastic, just that you and I could talk again.

[poemswords]

“Miss someone until they come back, or until you come back, until their absence in your life becomes something to be avoided at all costs. Miss them until you don’t have to anymore, until you’re reunited in your favorite booth in your favorite restaurant ordering your favorite meal, miss them until it feels like you never left. Or miss them until you can’t anymore, until the things you miss are identified and cataloged as things and not a person, until you figure out that easy company and long talks and unblinking, all-knowing eye contact will find you again the way they found you the first time. Miss someone until you don’t.”

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[phospore]

[jospivey-deactivated20190429]

[self2self]

after everything we’ve been through i just felt unworthy of being loved. everything that i gave you wasn’t enough to make you happy.

[self2self]

Thank you stranger for paying the 2 ringgit for me and letting me pay it back to you. ❤️

[self2self]

It doesn’t matter if you like her or comment or do anything for her posts, I’ve figured to let the one you love the most go. Because if they really do love you, then they will come back. If they dont, you know the answer.

[self2self]

It doesn’t matter if you like her or comment or do anything for her posts, I’ve figured to let the one you love the most go. Because if they really do love you, then they will come back. If they dont, you know the answer.

[self2self]

lots of people might think that i am only a science-y person mainly because i’m majoring in health science-pharmacy courses, plus i also have a direct straight to the point & like to get things done quickly type of personality. but honestly, i’d be too afraid to admit that i’m in love with exploring art in general (photography, painting, baking, music). i wished i had more time to do so when i was young, but i think im still not too late to do more now :)

[self2self]

tried & tried now I’m tired with no ounce of energy to fix this. Some people just have too much pride in them.

[self2self]

I don’t know if you’ll see this.

but I’m almost on the very verge of not trying anymore. There’s no ounce of energy that feels the need to reconcile something so broken by you. It’s funny that you showed up in my life, in the end to ghost me.

I’m so tired that I just wanna leave this place. The place that I use to be able to call home, now only a place that haunts so much memories. Two months left of serving and I’m almost done. Done for what? I don’t know. Maybe go to another place and get hurt again.

[self2self]

home feels foreign now.