me

23, sagittarius G59 where worlds collide every version of me lies here <3 eat shit

[selfcollided]

the fact that im literally a year n a couple months from being 25 & my frontal libe heing fully forrmed is WILD

[selfcollided]

anyways.

have one of my fav old sets <3

(video that goes w this is not free, so have these <3)

hyped to get my content shit back.

gonna be making some Halloween themed comeback content. stay tuned u horny mfers <3

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[killxbunnyyy]

I was gonna chase you through the woods with a mask on but never mind I guess

[selfcollided]

what i hate the most

is you told everyone about

a version of me that does not exist.

the woman you made them think i was

never existed.

i am not who you made me out to be.

i didn’t do

or say

the things you said i did

you lied to everyone

about who i was

(and continue to do so)

when in reality,

i gave you everything.

in fact,

i treated myself worse

than you claim i treated you

to show you

how much i loved you

and yet

you still

have the audacity

to paint me out as the villain.

so be it.

i will gladly be the villain in your story

because you are the one

who created this monster

you are the one

who made me this way.

you taught me

everything i know.

so

let me ask you this,

who is really the monster here?

because the woman i was

when we met, is dead

and her blood is

not on my hands.

[selfcollided]

“ why did you

awaken the love

in me

if you had

no intention of

staying long enough

to understand

it’s depth ? “

[runningcacti]

dump from recent activity <3

and imbackkk hello

aaaaa

[selfcollided]

dis me

[my-dailydreams]

[selfcollided]

“just calling to say i love you.

i miss you ma

if you dont hear from me morning

im sorry.

do you still have my location?”

[selfcollided]

the difference between us is

i dont have parents to save me

the last time i lived with them

got the chance to stay over

was 2017. 8 years ago

and you think

that you know what my life is like

when you still have a couch

or a bed

or a meal

anything at your parents place.

you get to knock on their door at 3am when its bad.

i get to call them and tell them to pray- and that if they dijt hear from me again

i love them.

you dont know what its like to make that call.

“things arent good- and im sleeping behind the dumpster tonight. “

but yeah, go ahead and tell me how i’m the

selfish

entitled

brat

you’ve never tasted homelessness.

i have memorized the flavor.

call me when you walk a mile in my shoes.

its starting to get cold at night again. i hope things get better by then.

[selfcollided]

i tried.

i was gentle and kind

and i tried communicated when things bugged me

i tried setting boundaries

you said it was okay

and then it was like i never said anything in the first place

then its me who was the problem

and i dont understand

i want you to be happy

but i deserve happiness too

then why do i feel guilty for telling you what i wasnt ok with

and why are you happy for using my boundary as a roadmap, and not a warning/stop sign?

i deserved better

and i still love you; i still want you.

but you never wanted me. the second i was out of sight- you leave me for the girl in front of you.

none of this is fair.

i hate you and i love tou

i want to die

[selfcollided]

u left cause im using

but no, theres a new one

and again un i am reminded that i will never be her

he said he loved me

but

i remember hearing him sob on the phone, saying

“i dont love her, and i dont have the heart to tell her”

flashfoward x months

im on the drug u were on

living in hotels

alone, again.

will anyone ever love me, for me?

will i ever be enough?

[selfcollided]

how do i make u love me?

answer: i dont. i tried it all slready.

i cwnt be someone else.

thats it- he loves the others

but me?

never me. iam not her. i tried to be and i failed

[into-wonderland-caroline]

[selfcollided]

last time i saw u

u were standing in the driveway in the dark

blurred from the tears

and i knew

i just knew, that was the end of us.

but the next call we talked about getting married

it was just snother lie

i dont know whats real and whats not. and im too late

i took too long to find the truth.

[selfcollided]

its always too late