self destructive, probaby

she/her - 19 •tw//ed• -sw: 187lbs, cw: 181lbs, lw:135lbs,, gw:120lbs- || active june 25||

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what happened calorically this week can never happen again...

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NO WAY I JUST ACCIDENTALLY ATE 1000+ CALORIES OF DATES SHUT THE HELL UP ITS SO OVER THEY WERE SO GOOD WHY ME GOD

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soo did anyone else's first year of uni make them fat or am I the town clown here...

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down 7 lbs in one week :3

I ♡ the honeymoon phase (this is my 3rd one)

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concerning amount of weightloss save mee......

save me concerning amount of weightloss..........

concerning amount of weightloss......

save meeee......

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50 days until I start university and I NEED TO BE SKINNY!!!

here's my accountability post ^ㅅ^

cw:158 -> I've been very sentient and mindlessly eating this whole year but my clothes have become tighter and I genuinely just don't feel like myself

GW: 135 -> this is not my goal weight in general however this is the lightest I've ever been and I want to at least START here for university so that I continue to stay motivated throughout the fall and winter

plan of action ->

1.) I'm going to start using MFP regularly again as well as intermittent fasting (1000 cals or under)

2.) I'm going to go on long walks every night, I average about 10-12 steps during these walks and burn around 400-600 calories

3.) I will also do a simple routine for toning my legs, arms and waist

motivation ->

1.) old pictures of myself/ looking at my smaller clothes I used to fit

2.) becoming small and cute for my boyfriend( I'm a feminist I swear I just hate myself) as well as new friends I might make in college

3.) being tiny for fall and winter/ holidays

this account has been dead now for a while but im really trying to revive it so please reach out if your foing through something similar or let me know if I should do body checks/ weight checkins/ excercise routines <333

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awwww man ☹️

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thanks tumblr for helping me celebrate my 4 year EDiversary

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does anyone else just have that one specific relapse month that hits them hard every year or no,, bc personally mines july

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YALL IVE LOST EXACTLY 50lbs IM SCREAMING

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you call it "an all time low", I call it "licking balsamic vinegar off a plate because it's low cal and hard to eat but I'm hungry"

we are not the same

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whoever the fuck invented arm fat will be speaking to my lawyers

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they hate to see a girlboss winning!

this ana shit is hard man I want a god damn burrito

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where

are my

GODDAMN

L A X I T I V E S

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do I love my best friend? yes

do I hate him becuase he's a better anorexic than me? yes

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I like to tell myself that my ED hasn't made me pick up any weird habits and then I remember that one of my safe foods is a literal spoon full of mustard.

zero cal amiright😎

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pov it actually doesn't get better