So, here is my confession that I will now subject you to since you asked for it a month ago and I only got the post now. please suffer:
There is this guy who I have been friends for about 10-ish years. met him right at the end of middle school and damn he was a menace back then. Tbh, he still is but now it is more towards making shit up from plastic and scrap metal than pulling pranks over other classmates (he is an engineer and makes whacky ass inventions just cause. software is his best interest tho)
So, I have known him for a while, we have been good friends for good few years as well mostly because I was a tomboy who watched anime and games and apparently that was rare here for girls until like 5 years ago.
Anyway, so that is how we started vibing. I developed a lowkey crush on him meanwhile, though not sure when since it was lowkey enough for me to not realise at all. Again, we both weren't interested in dating and stuff, our careers and families are top priority, so yeah.
It wasn't until we met again physically for a mutual friend's birthday that we connected again properly. never really fell off with him, but the previous connection was mostly through stupid memes on Insta and me insulting his shitty humour. He insulted me back on my song choices, calling me depressed bitch so that's that.
When we met again and talked face-to-face that I realised, huh. I liked him more now. More than friends should like other friends.
Our chemistry was good, conversations flowed smoothly (mutual jokes on each other's expense and the world), and even though there was something, I guess? idk. For me, I was more focused on my mutual friend's birthday, but I know something was there. Ironically, I was ready to ignore it too (since I thought he aint interested cause dating aint his thing) until he suddenly actually started typing back to me instead of just sending memes.
That's when we started actually talking, both through texts and calls and just, you know, making my bloody crush worse since I was actually now noticing more and more of the things I liked about him. he was responsible, lowkey sweet (never showed it tho and hid behind sassy replies) and all around a genuinely nice man. The way he cared about his younger sister made me really like him too, since I was an elder sister as well so.
Now, I was dense enough to not see it, but hindsight is 20/20, idk. He was actually interested in me too, and apparently I wasn't the only one who felt what I did that time. Unfortunately, when he called me to meet again in a mall, he did it under the guide that he needed help with something and I was dense enough to take him at face value. Tbf, I was fine with the unrequited love and all and thought wouldn't ever go beyond that anyway. in my mind, it was like already decided and that's why I never pushed it.
Anyway, my defense aside, my dude was apparently planning to confess to me that day but chickened out at the last minute and just spent the whole day roaming around and talking with me. Yeah, we both are idiots, don't worry.
It wasn't until weeks later during one of our nightly insta messages with dumb reels about stars and astrology (istg, they are funny if you really wanna piss someone off with them) when I kinda confessed that I "used to" like him (lol like 30 seconds ago and still do, but we aint addressing that now) in context of our star signs 'aligning' with each other as one of the more compatible ones (his was Capricorn as a December baby, and mine was virgo for August).
Bro, that dude completely went silent and was like "…only used to? don't feel anymore?"
Any diversion I could pull off at the moment failed (I was so panicked lol I thought I went ahead and destroyed one good friendship right there) as I blurted "no, don't worry I still do".
Fuck I was dumb. Thank fuck that idiot was dumber as he apparently started laughing and spam calling me until I picked up and said he likes me too and the laughter in his voice was hysteria with how fucking relieved he was.
So, yeah. That's how I got my first bf.
Unfortunately, we aint together anymore (mostly because of how much law school pressure got to me and how toxic my family is that I couldn't give enough time to him and he deserved better)
We still are friends. we still talk, send memes and message. He even adopted a cat and keeps sending me videos, knowing I love cats (somehow nicknamed the feline something very close to my unofficial nickname too lol). Neither of us dated again, but eh, who knows.
I don't think we will ever get back together but sometimes I wonder. I know he moved on fast (like, didn't dwell on the heartbreak much and ik that kinda hurt me, but he did get over things faster than me always, so no fault there) and it took me like, a whole year to recover but it is what it is.
Now I am no longer interested in any kind of relationship but istg, writing this down made me wonder if Senku can have a relationship like this too, just with a better ending. Who knows.
I LOVE THIS SMMM OMG NO WAY YALL BROKE UPPPPPP😞😞😞😞😞😞
I can’t lie this sounds like the plot to a movie and tbh I do think the break up hurt him more than you think.
From the sound of it i don’t think it’s over for y’all 💗✌️ if there ever is an update please submit another confessional🙏 I loved reading this.
And senku would fs have a romance like this, can someone actually recommend a senku x reader fic?
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