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Moved.

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For those of you who followed me recently and are actually RP blogs I’m going to be moving blogs, I’ll make sure to follow you from there since I’ll be using the same URL but go ahead and inbox me if you want me to do it.

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“Ararara don’t you know it’s rude to sneak up~”

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⊰♞♘⊱             “It’s just me, sorry.”

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<Please don’t be about to do anything crazy>

                   She had been in the middle of undressing for her                    midday when the stranger had barged into her                    apartment unannounced. Grabbing the closest                    object to her—which happened to be a brush—                    Alex flung the item at the unfamiliar face                    screaming bloody murder.

                   ❝ WRETCHED BEAST!!❞

⊰♞♘⊱              “Ma’am, please stop!”               Why couldn’t this happen to Kougami? It’s more awkward than whenever she walked in on Shion changing prior to their dating. She hadn’t even expected to have to dodge that and only had came in there under orders due to certain events. Her lover is going to strangle her or worse for this knowing her own luck given she saw another woman nude.              “I’m one of the Enforcers sent here to ask you questions, while the Inspectors are busy, I didn’t know you were changing and I’d prefer to not explain to a flirtatious minx among us why I’m hurt involving this incredibly awkward circumstance for me.”

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⊰♞♘⊱             “...” What the... “Miss, did I come in at a bad time?”

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what doesn’t kill you fucks you up mentally and affects your ability to have stable relationships with other human beings

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⊰♞♘⊱             “I need you to repeat that, from the beginning please.”

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“I heard you say her name in your sleep last night. Want to explain or should I just leave?”

     She heard her. A name that she didn’t want to repeat at any time and the hound could only stare in silence. Memories stifled for now involving the idea of her prior love life coming into her possible recent one even though she did not know what she’s getting into. Shion needed to know, but, bringing herself to mention it is a practice that isn’t easy to apply.

     Her former flame, the greatest shame that she’s ever had to the point she could say it haunted her mind at every twist and turn. She didn’t need the analyst to go at this moment and needed her to stay as much as part of her wanted to recollect her thoughts. Be honest, tell her already as much as she’s sitting up with only a sheet covering her bare form. It’s not that hard to tell her is what had ran through her mind only for the words to not leave her.

     Tell her already Kunizuka, stop sitting here thinking that things will be better this way!

     I don’t want to lose you, please… don’t leave me to my thoughts and her voice.

     Her eyes were pleading with her, focused upon chestnut in silence while for once it’s seen crystal clear across her mien that she’s not wanting this. Stay, she needed her to stay, she needed her to remove the pain that drifted into her heart.

    “I need you to feel alive!”

     Something that she hadn’t expected to tell her this either, mouth snapping shut tight just waiting for rejection. Yet, she found herself just soon after uncertain. She needs her, she wants her, she can’t picture herself at any time without her in her life and it’s at the point she in her desperation desired to shout out the other truth. That she’s in love.

     So it’s why she waited and waited only to find herself tugged downward toward the blonde’s chest to the warm feeling of her arms around her.

     Maybe she understood what she meant by that.

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[darklydreaminggirl]

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no masters or kings, when the ritual begins. there is no sweeter innocence, than our gentle sin.

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     The small blonde felt her entire frame turn stiff at the others reciprocated gesture, her eyes wide as she wanted to snap up and meet her gaze. Was she happy? Did she enjoy the close proximity or was it simply to ensure the situation didn’t grow overly awkward. The teenw was so unsure, the curiosity burning inside her chest but upon seeing that little book close, she knew something must have been right here.

     Never did she often hold the others attention like she had in this very moment, that shy bubbling feeling spreading as the corner of her mouth quirked upwards ever so slightly. It was nice being so close, picking up the scent of her hair and how warm she surprisingly seemed to be. The way she could hear the steady breaths as they slipped past her lips. She was content, and for the briefest moment, she actually felt at home. 

     Carefully though did she shift her hand to brush idly against the others knee, not wanting to push but not wanting to hold back all at the same time “…better late than never though, right?” 

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⊰♞♘⊱             That was true, better late than never in most cases, she knew that by now and had yet to dare think of anything else. Their closeness was pleasant enough it made her breathe easier. Is it strange? Perhaps, the way both of them would react. Is it surprising? Yes, it's enough to make her want to press further into this if she so wished to, but will not for that reason. They had more important things to worry over, not something that may pass yet it didn't feel like it would.

            Thankfully, she didn't stiffen up when feeling her knee brushed up against before pointing her utmost attention toward her. She's certainly unusual in her opinion, at the point that the aspiring musician wanted to question her motives further and further yet found herself drawn in. Why she was drawn in so naturally would remain a mystery to herself, attraction being one of the main ingredients and she's amongst the rare few of whom kept her attention easily.             Almost like she's found someone that might be far more worth her time than Rina had ever been. "True..." It helped that she's close enough but not too far in to make her admit such things fortunately, otherwise it would have been brushed off. Still, there's part of certain thoughts trailing in that mind of hers upon pointing her sapphire optics down at the blonde's lips almost contemplating one part. How would she react to that? It's not like she can say she knows, the ravenette is more... not so well versed with flirting these days. Which isn't a surprise, still, ignoring that thought is easier said than done.             Should I really?

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     ”I dont know." It was true. Everything she was saying was true. Associating with those who intentionally clouded ones hue only put others at risk of destroying their own. It was supposedly common sense nowadays, to push the dangerous ones away while the ‘healthy’ ones thrived. Shion was well aware of that much, knew the others despised anything less than adequate so how on earth could she possibly disagree with her words?

     Putting it into perspective however the girl obviously expected to be dropped, to simply hear ‘sorry my hues bad enough as it is without crazies’ and watch as the blonde sashayed in the opposite direction— except she didn’t want to. That was simply it. She didn’t want to leave, she didn’t want to abandon her, and anyone else who had just wasn’t worth the effort

     So hesitantly she allowed her head to loll onto Yayoi’s shoulder, fiddling with her own hands as she murmured back “I mean, I enjoy your company so I’m glad you weren’t sent away. Nobody deserves to be alone..”

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⊰♞♘⊱              Perhaps it didn't help the fact she was that close, that near her to the point her heart sped up by the tiniest bit with their current state. Regardless, the idea of this system made her sick to her stomach and then some. There was no point to it, so why is it necessary? She saw no need to have this 'perfect' society where being unhealthy on terms of mental state resulted in abandonment. It's nothing more than false promises mixed into false hope, they were in ways, bad enough without hues being in the perspective of the grand schemes in their lives. "... I wish I met you sooner, over her, for what it's worth."              To be that naive, that innocent toward such details again in life and breaking rules in similar fashion out of the fact that she would repeat all of it for one person. If she hadn't met Rina, they never would have met in any case, so in a way unfortunately... she thanked her. The blonde is warm, warm enough it could easily melt that wall of ice surrounding her poor heart. It's all she wanted, loneliness grew tiring but she won't easily admit it. Maybe though, she might feel better in the end after enough time. Time doesn't heal everything however, love is necessary to help with it.              Maybe it's why she relaxed, why she closed that thing of tabs then relaxed enough to rest her head against the others. For once, she's not being haunted, a good sign in this instance. Otherwise, it would have been more... troublesome.

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     ”Oh…” Shock was her initial reaction, her mind partially blanking out as she opened her mouth to speak and closed it once more. It felt like months of wondering had clicked into place, that all of her uncertainty and curiosity had simply stopped, everything made sense. She was the girl, she was the one everyone seemed to whisper about when they made their way idly through the halls. 

     With careful consideration, she began formulating her response, teeth sinking into her lower lip in worry “I… I don’t see why people would just.. stop talking to you.” shoulders rose and fell idly “I mean it’s not like we can help that sorta thing… ” she was so sure she sounded ridiculous                               “I’m sorry." it felt like the only rational thing to say—

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⊰♞♘⊱              "I'm more surprised you aren't reacting poorly about this." Why wouldn't she be surprised? She's facing a young woman that seemed to be interested in her by plenty yet she won't back down. How... confusing she supposed, it made the young guitarist wonder if she should just question things more often. Part of her wanted to let her further in, but would she really enjoy seeing all those inner demons? Probably not, given the fact both of them were in all honesty, different people.               There's nothing good that came out of it, so arms length worked well enough involving her defensive approach. "I'm lucky I wasn't sent to rehabilitation, you don't get to keep friends if they decide you're... unstable to the point of wanting nothing to do with." Isn't that the truth? But, it was the last part that made her only stare, what? "... it's not your fault." No, it's not her fault, it never will be the blonde's fault.                  You confuse me... but make me feel as if things are going to be alright. I almost want to ask you what your intentions really are to get near me, but I can't. I hope you realize what you're getting yourself into, for my sake, Ka... Shion.

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     Takizaki— She hummed idly for a brief moment, recalling the name and the chronic stigma that lurked alongside it. Of course she knew of Takizaki. She was revered as a troublemaker, as a lit fuse just waiting to set off the nearest powder keg. Not what she’d expected to to be questioned about but—

     ”From what I’ve heard she’s bad news. People don’t really talk about her much since she apparently crossed a couple lines. Heard she messed with someone and took it too far—” she stopped mid sentence, everything in her head clicking as she tried her absolute hardest not to jump to conclusions “…why?”

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⊰♞♘⊱            "... that's the one I meant, her, my life long shame and highest regret on terms of love. It's why nobody will talk with me too, why talk to someone that was in love with a girl that clouded her hue?" And then it all came full circle she supposed, this is why she warned her before in any case as to why she is making a mistake. Friendship won't last long, she knew that, she was thrown aside once already so what's another time? She's fine alone.            "So congratulations, you picked the wrong person to befriend." How blunt, far too blunt to be considered normal yet it's for the best. It's why she isn't being gentle, being honest to the full point of wondering if she may or may not hurt her by accident with this. Most likely, for the best to bring it to light and off the table.

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     For the briefest of moment the blonde felt panic surge through her chest, half expecting the other to turn and lash out at her for calling someone who was potentially special such a careless word. She didn’t know the dark haired one as well as she’d like however as the days passed she gradually felt the unease between them slowly begin to settle.

     Though as soon as that panic had settled she felt it disperse, instead allowing her brows to furrow intently over her companions words, clearly trash didn’t even come close to explain this girl she spoke of. ”Ah… I didn’t mean to overstep or anything but… She sounds awful.”

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⊰♞♘⊱              "... what do you know about Takizaki Rina?" She was fairly popular among certain circles, although her interests were quite in all honesty, frightening to others unlike the aspiring musician who was torn apart by her actions. Her heart was given then lost before her own eyes as if it didn't matter she loved her deeply.               So she needed to ask this, to see if she heard anything of her, the girl who shattered her into a thousand pieces then left whilst she attempted to pick them up alone. Alone as always, she had nobody for support, so she did things by herself. "I'm curious is all."

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     ”Oh…" she paused, instantly picking up on how quickly the others walls had shot up around her. God was she curious, curious about this dark haired girl and all the demons she so effortlessly kept locked away. She wanted to ask and get inside just a little and she was so terrified of losing her only friend. Only right now, was one of those moments she just couldn’t hold her tongue 

     ”.. you should play again. Whoever it was sounds like trash anyway if they stopped what you were passionate about~”

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⊰♞♘⊱              "... trash?" It only caused her to be not as abnormally silent as one would expect, her old flame and someone that she cared far too much about in any case could be called this. Honestly, the ravenette was keeping those demons locked away to prevent any form of them creating more havoc between herself and what chances were presented before her to keep going on in hopes of things not resulting in rehabilitation.              "... she's my life long shame." Life long shame barely cut it, Rina was more than that, a fixation of hers that she so desperately needed gone from her life entirely; just so she may breathe again freely without hearing her voice.

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“..oh.” she was beyond intrigued as she finally closed the awkward gap between them, plopping down and squinting to see a little closer “Can’t say I expected that but.. does that mean you play~?" her eyes lit up, forcing herself not to explode on the prospect of hearing her play— not yet

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⊰♞♘⊱              "Yes, I do play, not as much as I use to." Which is the truth as well, she hadn't played since Rina had left the picture due to differing... beliefs to put it lightly. She won't mention this for a reason. "... I haven't played for ages due to someone else."