Wednesday 14th February 22:42
Not So Happy Valentines Day
Okay, that might be a little dramatic but it’s my second year being single on this fateful February 14thand I’m still getting used it. Don’t get me wrong darling, I’ve never cared for today in the slightest as you should love someone fully and with your every being each day, it’s just easier to get swept up in everyone else being loved up with their public declarations of love. You can’t help to want someone to surprise you, with an “I love you” or a single rose. As I’m writing away at 22:55, I have someone in my mind whom I want to say the words “Will you be my Valentine?”… except I’m terrified of the answer, of being rejected.
It takes a mixture of bravery and willingness to let yourself be hurt by offering your heart to someone. To ensure I have no regrets this year, I will message him before midnight and say those words because we agreed to confident together. (Even if it scares the living lights out of me!). So while that’s in the back of my mind I have several layers of good news! Here’s the mini list, in order as of the amount of excitement I’m in:
1. Holiday to Thailand 2. 40 Hour Assistant Manger in Training Job 3. I lost 1 kilo in my bid to get fit
In detail, for some reason my lovely father decided I should meet them in Thailand when they stop over on their way back from Australia, therefore I get a free weeks holiday. (No complaints here as I’m half Thai and it’s basically home). Yay sunshine to look forward to! Secondly, I said from the beginning I wanted to focus on a full time career, something that I can sink my teeth into and enjoy. This role popped up, and after a 2-round interview process I got the position! I start on the 22nd February and finish my current job on the 17th February, lovely little break in between.
Lastly, this I’m not so bothered about as I’m not actually trying to lose weight per say, I’ve been attempting to get to peak physique and more athletically built. I love both food and gym, I just can’t seem to balance them in the correct way to see results. On a side note my lovely, I just saw something on Facebook that HE has posted, and well there’s not really a need for me to say anything as it’s clear that I’ll never be seen in that way by him.
So this little lonely heart will wait until next year, maybe then I will hear those words by someone, maybe even by you.
With love, Sera x
