stars and scars

depressed AF don't tell my mom

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One

Of the main reasons people tell you not to kill yourself is to imagine how your loved ones would feel with you gone, they seem to be doing fine without me while I'm still here

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I

Want no one and nothing

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Like

It's natural human nAture for me to want a boyfriend and to seek companionship, there's absolutely nothing wrong with that. I'm not saying that a boyfriend will change my life or solve all my problems I'm just saying itd be nice to have one

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They

Don't know what it's like to never be the center of anyone's attention

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Like

I'm no Ellie but I'm still cute. And we did click, why doesn't Alex like me? Does he know all that I risked just for him and he won't even talk to me? I'm fucking done

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I

Think I'm just done pretending people mean the world to me

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I

Actually am second place in everyone's life. Hallie has Olivia as her best friend, Deanna has a life of her own, Kendra has kiara and joi, Isabel has diamond, Claire isn't mentally stable enough, my mom chooses my brother bc he's successful. Alex has Ellie, and Jacob has Ashley, I'm just lingering in the background by myself, I'm in this by myself. The only person who puts me and my needs first and gives me the attention I deserve is my therapist.

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First

Day back at school in a week. I smell nice and I like my outfit so hopefully today isn't too stressful

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I

Don't have a best friend. I am so incredibly alone

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Claire

Is in the hospital from a suicide attempt, and now my mom is in the hospital from heart complications. It doesn't get better than this!

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I

Feel so totally completely alone

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Okay

But I'm in emotional and physical pain

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Ive

Been listening to the same 3 songs by turnover on repeat for like 72 hours and I can't tell if they're a positive or negative influence

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AAaaaaaaand

I've self harmed in yet anther friends bathroom and ruined another beach day!!!

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Everything

Is actually copacetic

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Okay

Life is just gonna always suck. Even when something isn't happening to me, it's happening to my friend or my mom and either way the stress of it comes back to me, when was the last time I was happy for a full 7 days straight without any stress or getting sad? I honestly don't remember, maybe sometime in elementary school

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Im

Too mentally exhausted to talk about