I think there is missing category for what most submissive people are actually experiencing. Labels like gay, sissy, bi, faggot, dyke , lesbian don’t seem to fit perfectly. I have watched a lot of sissy hypo and looked at plenty of tumblr blogs. It’s amazing how often it misses the mark. First of all I don’t think most sissies are gay or do they actually want to be women. This is one of the biggest misconceptions . Many women who want to be degraded and service other women are also often not gay either. I discovered the concept of beta and alpha people a few years ago and thought for a brief moment that I was gaining some insight. There was a big problem I didn’t fit any of the characteristics of a beta male. Actually I present very manly. I have always had a masculine job and enjoy masculine activities. Clearly beta does not fit. I’m physically attracted to females. Early on in my life, pre teen, I remember fantasizing about being made to do things. I would try on my moms or sisters underwear but feel extremely ashamed and not do it often. I always liked the feeling of something near my ass. I would hold a bar of soap between my cheeks or insert small objects like a marker. Again extreme shame, because I knew I wasn’t gay. Porn was magazines primarily back then and difficult to get when under age. It was very confusing. At some point I started watching Les Dom porn and it resonated with me for some reason. Gay porn did not. I have explored my submissive fantasies with both men and women and have learned an incredible amount. Forced feminization has always been part of my fantasies but like most, I would explore, feel guilt, purge, suppress and eventually relapse. I didn’t know what was going on with me or what I considered disgusting thoughts. How could I be a normal productive citizen, a husband, a dad and think about the things i think about. A quick idea of things that turn me on, humiliation, feminization, pissed on, spit on, predicament bondage, race play, cuck fantasies. This list could be longer but any submissive reading is probably going to identify with some of these. I thought terms like sissy , beta and boi captured most of what was going on in my head but not all. I also discovered through my old tumblr blogs that there were females with almost the same fantasies.
All these labels and yet there are a huge group of us male and female subs that don’t feel like we fit into any group. I believe I know what that group is. We are sexual betas. We can present in public as our actual gender, be attracted to the same sex but have these other needs. I think men can be the alpha in their house, the protector and provider but be a sexual betas. Cuckolds and Cuckqueens can fall into this category. I am going to attempt to write a series of blog posts covering topics like feminization, cuckolds, lezdom, fem Dom and more. Each topic will explain how and why sexual betas are attracted to these kinks.
