This is my story of being a mom and my journey on fulfilling it.I am a mother of three beautiful Angels.When I am still young all I wanted is have kids of my own. I am very excited what are my future kids looks like. I am keep on Imagining things and also reading books on how to have kids other thank asking with my Mom and Aunties. I read books about pregnancy and everything about stages until giving birth.I don't have any Idea how hard to be a parent and a Mother. Never Imagine how to raise my kids and how to support them financially and to give them a comfortable life. All I wanted is to have babies and kids of my own. no matter who will be the father.When I reach the age of 20, I met my first Boyfriend. He was my classmate and eventually became my friend. I worked as a Student Assistant during that time and I was assigned in Computer Laboratory in our Department. He approached me and asking favor to help him to work also as a Student Assistant. His intention was to have free access in the computer laboratory and have limited access to internet. We became Lab Partner. During that time he has a girlfriend who often visit to the laboratory just to see him. But as time flies, for no reason at all he fall in-love with me (That what he said). Anyways, he broke up with his girl friend and started to court me for over 6 months and before we graduated in college he became my Boyfriend.Love per se' is not really what we felt during that early age. But since I wanted to experience love Making so we both agreed to do it. But I didn't get pregnant. I research and read books. at the back of my mind, maybe because we are not yet ready. Until we graduated college and have our career. We decided to live in one roof. He proposed to me several times but I decline him several times also for that reason that I have to get pregnant first before marriage. that's our deal. Until we reach 5 years living together and no kids. I got frustrated. I thought I cannot bear a child or he cannot give me a child. I prayed and ask God just to give me just one child. But we struggled. I suggested to see a doctor but he horribly reacted differently saying he is not impotent and he has no defect. He argued and things go bad. As years past, our feelings both broken and he cheated on me. He wanted to call it off. I tried but I loved him. But he was already in love with someone else and we never had a chance to fix it. 7 years lasted and I decided to let go. My dream of being a mother also fades away and frustrations.I quit my Job ( A stable and Good Job - in a bank). I felt my life was ruined and has domino effect. I want to end my life. All my future plans already destroyed. I suffered and I was broke. I wasted all my investments and savings. I had several sex partners and Got so frustrated. I prayed every day asking God to end my life and to stop from breathing. But as days to by, praying every single day then I realized that God only help me to wake up in the bad dream and start my life again.I search for a job and start of the year, Feb 2011 I got a Job. I only applied for Accounting Staff but I was offered and hired as Accounting Supervisor (Accounting Head in Accounting Department). I was surprised and overwhelmed. I thanked God for the new chance to start a new life. Then in that company I found the man who can fulfill my dream to become a mother, not only that I found a Man to be the father of my kids and a great Husband.2003 when I met my first boyfriend, 2004 when I graduated college and start working to my dream Job (which is to work in a bank), until this very moment over 15 years I've been working in a bank. 2010 when I got broke and had several partners (soul searching and trust issues and all) and Finally, in 2011 God answered all my prayers. i just worked to that company in just 5 months, maybe because God planned for it already. I realized that I keep on planning for myself and to my future. I forgot that God has bigger plans for me. When I prayed and let God take over, he gave me the most precious Man in the Universe and that is my Husband. July of 2011 that I accepted him and open my heart without hesitation and doubt. And October of 2011 I am back of working in a bank again, and now I am still working with this bank for 8 years now. I am very much happy with my life. having the greatest love from God, the gift he had given me and my treasures and my life, my three kids. But not all is in right place. Financially we are struggling, literally we are struggling to the point that I cannot feed my own kids. My Salary was not enough to support my three kids. Having kids is not easy. You will cut yourself out from all the wants in the world and to make your kids your priority. Good thing I don't have any material wants in the world. My husband sacrifice his Job. He quit just to be a house husband and forget his ego. He was the one who took care of the kids from the very beginning. He do all the household chores, the changing the diapers, preparing the milk bottles, washing the dishes and the dirty clothes. He does all the jobs in our world. He serves me, sending me to work. We live a very simple life but still my Salary is not enough to even buy delicious food in the table.when our first child started to go to school, additional Finances strikes more. I cannot manage how to budget little income to pay off all the bills. Rentals, Gasoline, Mortgage, Food, Vitamins, Milk and even medicines. We find extra income to survive. We bake cakes and pastries. Sell online. But still, not enough. I felt so frustrated but when I see my husband, we was more frustrated than me because he cannot help me financially. As much as possible i have to keep it to myself in order not to see him worried. And now I am Financially broke. Online Loans. My credit cards are all past due. including lending companies. I tried to ask help and borrow money from my classmates and friends but they are also struggling in life. All I do is pray. right from this very moment. I am praying that I will get out from this situation. I am financially broke, I don't have savings and no investments. I have three babies to feed. How can I support them? My Salary is not enough to pay off my Monthly amortization and past due interest. Aside from that I was scammed.All I have is my Family and the love of my Husband. That is all I have. Nothing more and nothing less. I have my friends. I can call or PM or chat them anytime but they could not help me financially. Even my relatives, they are not willing to help me even they have financial capabilities but they are afraid to help me. All I have is God. whom I can't call every time I need wisdom and guidance. I am contented of my Mom, my siblings, my kids and my Husband. their support and love is enough to fight and to survive.And Motherhood is one of the greatest thing that happens to me. Some of the people I know has everything, the luxurious life, the money, the travel, but they don't have a kids or even a child. I am thanking God that despite of the struggle that I am facing today, I am so blessed that I have the most important thing in this world, that is LOVE and FAMILY and have both of that and I have no reason to surrender in this HARD LIFE. Anyway, I have God in my side. So, come on problem I am not afraid of you!Life is not what you plan, it is what God plan for you. Do not be afraid of difficulties of life. God is just preparing you for the Biggest battle, so stand strong and ready to accept the challenge. Stay positive and always pray. Nothing is impossible with God and with your REAL and TRUE Family behind your back to back you up!
Since I'm bored, trying and exploring IG... Worag gikapoy nakog tan.aw sa mga IG stories, as always... video napod... Am, sori sa background, dont mind that! https://www.instagram.com/p/B5sReCTnK7v/?igshid=1lu8gmjxl9w3y
When I tried posing infront of a mirror and do the mirror selfie! Tada! Walay trapo ang samin! Hahahahahaa https://www.instagram.com/p/B5sLtgzHhu-/?igshid=oeehw26thazs
Nageffort jud mi ug posing pero ang nagpicture wala jud nageffort! Blurry is life! Okay keeeyuuuuuu! (at Butuan City) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5h6fPLnHdE/?igshid=f5fuihw3av2m
When we go home early... Happiness... Once in a blue moon to have this opportunity to bond... #friendshipatWork #workFamily (at General Santos City) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4wqocAHoCg/?igshid=1pdv2n2na4z5t
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