not a hero

ikari shinji 全ての終わりに愛があるなら。 {gakuen datenroku verse} [DIRECTORY]

[shemhazais]

          do you ever just kinda... like... i dunno.              feel like you're forgetting something?

[shemhazais]

buffdaddykaworu started following you

Oh! That uniform alone is more than enough to catch Shinji's attention. 

"... I-it's Kaworu-kun." Okay, perhaps it took more than his attention alone. Even if it's not his Kaworu specifically, it's close enough to hit home. A rare, shy expression blooms across the boy's face. Goodness, Shinji, a little control over yourself wouldn't hurt now and then. 

"Um." An exaggerated clearing of his throat was made in an attempt to catch Kaworu's attention. "Hi there. How've you been?"

[ayanami-1-blog]

Rei-I is bored with the guardian.  He’s boring.  She drops some wrappers on Ikari’s head and drifts away to somewhere where she won’t die of boredom.

[shemhazais]

Why am I even bothering.

You can hate me all you want, but at least pick up after yourself in the future, will you? Yeesh.

[hedgehog-in-dilemma-blog]

"Yay!  Have some cake I made.  Pretend it isn’t one of the five cakes I baked this past week to stave off the boredom of being a lonely homemaker, and it was actually made to celebrate your return despite having no knowledge of your plans to come back!"

[shemhazais]

Shinji accepts the slice, but he lingers around to give his mirror a worried look. 

"... Hey..." A hand rests on the other's shoulder. "You okay? Um, I'm not trying to insinuate anything, but..." Shinji shrugs. It could just be his imagination, right? Right! Perhaps he spoke too soon.

"Uh, hey, what the heck. Never mind what I said. Thanks for the cake. What flavor is it?"

[guardianrei]

[Rei answers the door very quickly. Despite wearing her usual expression, she’s very excited. He doesn’t even get a hello before being dragged back to her bedroom. An iguana watches them from her warmest spot in the tall cage.]

Ikari-kun. Meet Lilith.

[shemhazais]

[The sudden pulling and dragging is unexpected, and Shinji, as per usual, tangles his legs one after the other as his face steeps a dark red from being yanked into a girl's bedroom.] 

W-WHOA----! A-A-Aya----!?

[But an iguana is the most least expected item to be presented before him. Initial shock transforms to that of a look of confusion. He laughs. Nervously.]

Uh. Is that... an iguana? [Where in the heck did Ayanami even obtain an iguana, for Christ's sake? He taps lightly at one side of the reptile's cage.]

Hey there, lil' guy.

[headlesskaworu]

It’s too late to hurry now. Kaworu sits and takes back his items. Next, to get his head on the brace, then get it back onto his body, slowly but surely. He’s trying to smile in hopes of setting Shinji at ease, but it’s hard when he’s so upset with himself. He can practically feel the terror. Now, back to his notepad: he writes in his neatest hand—which isn’t all that neat, but legible, at least—‘I am very sorry. I never meant to scare you.’

Ahh, he feels really bad. He’d sigh, if he could.

[shemhazais]

Shinji is still wary, but when the hand begins to write onto the pad of paper, he leans forward with curiosity masking over his terror to read the written message with awe. 

Mouthing the words to himself quietly, Shinji pulls back to kneel back onto his knees in an apologetic gesture, one hand covering his mouth as he gasped in surprise. "O-oh, please----" Now he felt bad himself. He might have overreacted a tad bit, but in his defense, he had never seen such a phenomenon! 

"I should be the one apologizing, s-screaming my head off like that..." Shinji bows his head low before fidgeting in his posture. "Um... it's just..." In an attempt to prove that it was all right, the boy scoots closer to the other, careful not to disturb the body. "I've never seen a-anything like this before, that's all. Y-you're Kaworu, aren't you? A... different one." 

Shinji can't help but feel lucky that his Kaworu hadn't been subjected to such horrifying ends. A weak smile is returned, albeit forced.

[hedgehog-in-dilemma-blog]

"Don’t do that again."

"Okay, oniisan?"

[shemhazais]

... ... wHY

C-C----

Crystal clear...

[ayanami-1-blog]

Rei-i couldn’t care less about making peace.  Pay for your disgusting connection to Kaworu-sama!  She headbutts him in his dumb knee.

[shemhazais]

[He definitely trips this time.]

Ah----... [Aaaaand, there he goes. Timber.]

Oof. Okay, you got me. [He doesn't bother getting up.] What do you want? I won't know unless you, you know. Talk.

[guardianrei]

!

…

Please. Come.

[shemhazais]

???

Okay.

...

...

Knock knock.

[headlesskaworu]

Oh, oh no, he’s done it again… He scrambles to get his head back on, but he rushes too much and drops his neck brace, then drops his head trying to catch the brace. He’s just all over the floor, on top of scaring a Shinji-kun. He tries to get his notepad out to apologize and ends up dropping that too, with the pen doing what pens do—flying across the room for no particular reason. What a mess.

[shemhazais]

Huh? Huh!? What's going on? How is that even scientifically possible?! And to top it all off, the head that gets attached ---- or attempted to be, at least ---- resembles too much like... like.... Kaworu. 

The pen flies by his head and Shinji utters another whimper of fear, toffee eyes widened incredibly. He squats by the nearest wall, his heart beating wildly in his throat while he tries to assess the situation at hand. 

"U-Um...?!" Words are unable to be formed at the moment. His throat feels like it's squeezing itself. From the severed head, the neck brace, to the notepad, it's all things this Shinji has never seen before in his life. 

Still, he tries to come off as polite by handing the headless body's searching pale hands the notepad and pen with shaking hands of his own. "H-H-H-Here... y-you, um, g-go?"

[shemhazais]

reshinji replied to your post:headlesskaworu started following you ...

Now you stop that! You’re going to hurt his feelings, meanie!

BUH----!

HIS----!!! AH! H-H-H-H-H-H-HEAD----!?! WHY?

[guardianrei]

…I was attempting a joke. I will try to be more clear next time.

What you describe does not sound exciting. It sounds as if you are not fond of it. I have something more interesting to show you, if you could find the time to  visit my apartment.

[shemhazais]

OH----! A J-JOKE... A-Aha... ha!!? [Oops. Too late, Shinji.]

Something interesting? ... O-okay. I'm free right now, so should I head over? 

I-It's not another horse head, right?

[shemhazais]

headlesskaworu started following you

[SCREAMING]

[fuckyeahcampusapocalypse]

http://meowgon.deviantart.com/art/magical-boy-nagisa-kun-368962590

[ayanami-1-blog]

You stole Kaworu-sama from her.  That’s what you did.  She throws the severed head of the Shinji pinata at him, too.

[shemhazais]

[Shinji screams, and it's not very manly.] 

What is that?! Who is that!----

----I-I-IT'S ME!? AAH!!! Okay! Okay, we can-- [He nearly trips.] --TALK IT OUT! Please?!

[guardianrei]

Your face is clear. I was only wondering if you have done exciting things since I last heard from you. It seems you have no new scars from dragon battles.

[shemhazais]

I-is it, really? Oh, gosh, and here I was, worried that I might look like a zombie from all that studying. Unless you consider constantly being cooped up in a small room surrounded by nothing but textbooks and loose-leaf papers as something 'exciting', I haven't been participating in, er, d-dragon battles.

... Wait. 

Y-you battle dragons?

[hedgehog-in-dilemma-blog]

"You left."

[shemhazais]

...

... ... 

U-uh. 

Uhm. But I'm b-back...? Now? Eep.