I said I wasn't gonna lose my head

He'll be okay, Ikari Shinji-kun. I generally don't follow first out of respect for those who may be upset by gore. (This blog is entirely for fun, not intended to be a serious blog. Don't think too hard about the logic behind anything that happens.) I track #headlesskaworu other blogs

[tabrisnolonger]

official notice, as if it wasn’t clear already: this blog (and all the blogs I reblog this post to) are on indefinite hiatus. I’m having some bad feelings towards this comm (which isn’t to say none of you are great and super fun to play with—MOST of you are wonderful, there’s just been too many shitty happenings here in rapid succession over the past few months for me to feel as comfortable as I once did.) and I feel that if I can focus on one blog, possibly two if I’m feeling it, it’ll be much easier to be here without my anxiety kicking into overdrive.

to be clear, I’ll be on saviorshinji mostly when I’m here. guardianrei will be on semi-hiatus, maybe? the rest consume a lot of emotional energy to run that I just don’t have anymore.

[headlesskaworu]

[nagisa-kaworu]

[nagisa-kaworu]

There is no timber to a voiceless thought, yet the tone comes through all the same. It is not that sort of reassurance that he sought, but a certainty in not presuming his own obligations upon his reflection.

"Is that all? It would put my mind at ease, if you did watch over him, but there is so much more for you to experience than merely that. You’ve reached the end of it, haven’t you? The end of the fate of the first and the last, of Adam and Tabris."

No further cranes come from his hands. Instead a few nearby lightly stretch their wings and begin to flit about on an unseen wind. He has grown lax in masking what he truly is in this time spent traveling words. And of them all, the one he would least hide from is himself.

"You did your damage, as all who dare to touch another’s heart will always do. But his fears regarding me are not your fault. Those also originate in me."

[headlesskaworu]

The next crane goes right into Nagisa-kun's hair.

'There is not much I can do in this state,' he admits. The only things he sees in his future are baths and naps. Hugs too, if those around him are feeling generous enough. Having a removed head is more trouble than anyone seems to realize, if only because when Lilin lose their heads, they don't come back.

His hands aren't tired, but he is. He has enough cranes for the moment. Instead, he has a very important question, which only the other can answer. 'Do you like baths?'

[headlesskaworu]

"Lilin" he types, double checks his spelling. He's certain he's typing it right! But every time he uses a space, it changes to "Lilian"! Why? He'll need to text Shiny-kun--er, Shinji-kun about this. Many times. Over and over. The device is taunting him.

[headlesskaworu]

Headdwyn will find on his dresser the latest in cell phone technology and a note. "Kaworu-kun!" it reads. "I looked all over for a phone that would meet your needs. Try it out, and tell me how it goes."

A phone, the note says, but it seems to be a black bar. Like soap... But it's hard and doesn't smell like anything. Buttons along the sides invite presses, colors on the screen get tapped. Fascinating! His cold fingers don't register on the touch screen, but by pure force of will, keys press anyway. He curls back into bed to explore.

And here, Shinji-kun has already put his number in! 

Shiny-kun!

Shiny-kun

?

Shinji

?? Well! Word alteration aside, I find this device wonderful! Lilian technology truly

What is Lilian?

Lilian 

Help me Shiny-kun.

[headlesskaworu]

hedgehog-in-dilemma replied to your post:hedgehog-in-dilemma replied to your post:give...

you can pretend this happens before his death and heady was just fumbling around with the phone and getting the hang of it until now

shinhog comes back to so many messages. most are gibberish and just his name, the rest are a few "where are you"s and a "help I can't get the curtains back up"

[headlesskaworu]

hedgehog-in-dilemma replied to your post:give kaworu a phone, it’d increase his talkativity...

do you want Shinhog to gift him with one?

yeah, if it's not interrupting his return shenanigans

[headlesskaworu]

give kaworu a phone, it'd increase his talkativity like 300%

[the-glass-boy-deactivated201411]

"Are you….Kaworu-kun? What’s wrong with your head?"

[headlesskaworu]

It'd be rude to keep laying there when he's being addressed. He sits up and puts his head in his neck brace, then pulls it on smoothly, like he's practiced the process many times.

Shinji receives an apologetic smile; Kaworu regrets showing him that sort of thing, but he commends the boy for not screaming or stumbling back. He offers his hand, if Shinji's willing to sit with him.

[the-glass-boy-deactivated201411]

What’s that jingling sound? It’s been ringing for the past few minutes nonstop. Shinji decides to get up and find the source of the sound. It wasn’t every day that was curious, but today could be an exception.

He followed the bell to the best of his abilities. It jingled on and off, sometimes confusing Shinji of the pathway to take.

After a few minutes, the bell stopped, and he starting running towards where he last heard the sound. Pausing by a bench to catch his breath, he notices a body lying on it, and arms a head. Was that….Kaworu-kun?

Shinji watches in mild horror as the boy sleeps. 

[headlesskaworu]

"Sleep" is what one would call it after already having met him awake, knowing he's still animated despite his...decapitation issue. When he doesn't breathe, and his head's completely off, he could easily be taken for a corpse.

For this reason, he doesn't sleep in public. He'd been sure he went back into the house for his nap, but somehow ending up outside... It's not much of a surprise anymore.

He can feel eyes on him, and he opens a red eye in response.

[headlesskaworu]

Shinji-kun's been gone a long time. Kaworu jingles the bell on the collar he was given. Shinji did say he'd come if he heard the bell, didn't he? Jingle, jingle...

He takes it outside. Jingle jingle. Shinji-kun? Jingle jingle jingle jingle jingle. Did he miss the call for a game of hide and seek? It isn't fair to make him it if he doesn't even know the game is starting.

Sadly, Kaworu takes his bell back inside to lay down on the back of the couch. He's long since given up on uprighting it himself. Head comes off and into his arms for a nap. Jingle jingle, come back soon, Shinji-kun.

[nagisa-kaworu]

[nagisa-kaworu]

And so it is. The silence this time stretches out perhaps noticeably long, hanging heavily upon the air.

He does not easily usurp the place of another. It has always been so. That has led to many rejections. In the end, it will be the cause of his downfall. This is the closest he has ever dared.

"I have never met another from his timeline," he finally says.

The reason why need not be stated. His gaze finally turns away from the piles of cranes that surround them to rest squarely upon the vision of his other self right before him.

"Do you plan to watch over him then?" It is not the question he truly wishes to ask, but for the moment it will do.

[headlesskaworu]

'Yes. And that is all I am doing,' he reassures. There's not much else left for his sorry existence, a decapitated corpse barely sustained by a little red orb. He needs more care than he can return anymore.

His own feelings are irrelevant; what Shinji wants is friendship, so friendship he will have.

On the tail of a brand new crane to join the paper sea, he adds with ease, 'I am glad he found you. Though you worry him, and I wish you'd be more attentive to his fears on losing you, I'm hardly in a position to criticize. I may have put those fears in him in the first place.'

[headlesskaworu]

Kaworu's hat is gone, and the sofa's only changed angle. This is terrible.

[headlesskaworu]

Well, Kaworu feels pretty good in this nice top hat. Since Sa-chin seems to have gone off somewhere, he takes it upon his shoulders to clean everything up. Shinji wouldn't be too happy to come home to this disaster, would he? It's okay, Shinji-kun. Kaworu will protect your happiness.

(Nevermind that he already failed with the couch and the curtains. He's certain he'll find a way to right those if he takes care of everything else first.)

[headlesskaworu]

Wow! Kaworu doesn't know where this hat came from, but he sure has it now. Neat!

[hedgehog-in-dilemma-blog]

"Kaworu-kun!" Shinji laughs.  "Kaworu-kun, you’re squeezing me!"  The punishment results in a whole lot of giggling.  The angel should probably put some more thought in his disciplinary methods.  Rubbing circles into Kaworu-kun’s back, Shinji brushes back his guest’s bangs.  "Do you want me to give you a haircut sometime this week?"  He would offer it as thanks, but it’s a crappy way to thank somebody who’s been through the mill as muh as Kaworu-kun.

[headlesskaworu]

If Shinji's giggling, it can't be that bad. And, to be honest, Kaworu's pleased to hear the other laugh.

And then his eyebrows lift. A haircut? He winds a lock around his finger behind his ear and pulls it down. As much as he avoids his reflection, he hadn't noticed anything, but this bit of hair nearly reaches his collarbone. He really is overgrown...

Letting go of Shinji entirely, he pulls what he can into a shaggy ponytail. It really is long. He lets it down and instead takes Shinji's hands. He absolutely would appreciate a haircut!

[hedgehog-in-dilemma-blog]

Who freaking knows what the pots and pans are doing there?  Sachiel jumps around like a jackrabbit, not short on energy in the least.  Messes are awful.  You can’t eat snacks in a mess.  Tabris doesn’t know how uncomfortable it is.  He can’t if he doesn’t eat.  Sa-chin throws out question after question:  Are balloons sentient?  When did Tabris last see Ikari Shinji?  Where have all the snacks gone??

[headlesskaworu]

Kaworu ponders the presented questions. At the very least, he can guess all the snacks have gone here--he pokes Sachiel's belly. He hasn't seen Shinji-kun since the last time Sachiel did, so he has no answer there, unfortunately. The balloon question takes more thought. Does Sa-chin think they are? Have you ever seen one come into the kitchen for a snack? It's certainly not a solid indicator, since Kaworu himself doesn't look for snacks, but most sentient things tend to be alive.