Diving into Adulthood

I'm a young adult trying to figure out my life one day at a time and hoping I make the right decisions.

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Watch: Kristen Bell opens up about the mental health double standard and how she manages her own struggle.

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90′s 

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a little something to remember

[sheylalayla-blog]

[healthy-carrot]

Just a reminder that whilst a perfectly clean diet is good for your health, so are these:

sunshine;

reading;

kissing;

alone time;

fresh sheets;

loving;

sleeping;

combing your hair;

cuddles;

90s movies;

letting loose;

moisturising your skin;

forgiving;

being anonymous;

impulse shopping;

laughing;

being outdoors;

indulging;

having sex;

lying in bed all day;

drinking tea;

crying;

listening to your favourite album;

going out for coffee;

getting lost in a book store;

[sheylalayla-blog]

It was never really me...it was you.

You called me "trifling." That is what stuck in my head the most. Not our last night together, not your goofy smile, or your beautiful eyes though they're certainly in my head too. No it was that statement. A statement I will never truly comprehend. Why should I? The last night I was with you the conversation flowed so easily and I wasn't nervous for the first time. I don't know if it was the fact that you were tripping balls or the fact that I had had the courage to come over in the first place. It was just different, and when I left the next morning you said we were good. Those were quite literally your last words to me. That's where you lose me. I don't think that was ever the case. I think you were more afraid to admit that you felt something for a woman in a relationship than you were willing to let on. I had witnessed you high enough to know-I thought-when you were coherent. That first night that I stayed over and watched Pulp Fiction...when you looked DIRECTLY at me as you intertwined your legs in mine and we just cuddled..I mean, YOU initiated that. That night was perfect. We didn't do anything wrong necessarily but it felt so taboo and in that moment I was positive that you felt something for me too. When we were at the club and Josh had drove but you asked me to come outside to get your stuff...I was positive it had been for a reason, but he came out too and I'll never really know..and then that last night...April 23rd. That was the last time I saw you. When you were unbeknownst to you burning your tortillas and I laughed. The night YOU invited me to lie in bed with you because I was high and passing out from the weed. I remember that night and I cry a little because it was perfect. I know it wasn't supposed to be. I know I'm not supposed to think about it, about you, about any of it..but I do. But I think you got scared. Scared that you might fall for someone who was attached. Afraid that you would enjoy being with me in some way. You pushed me away and yet, I miss you. I miss your boney, smart assed, self. I miss you asking if I wanted a dab, I miss your laugh, I miss the way EVERYTHING you said sounded like an innuendo. I miss all of it and trust me, I hate myself every day for it. But some nights when I dream you're apologizing for everything that transpired between us...I'm almost positive it's your soul reaching out and admitting you miss me too.

[sheylalayla-blog]

Ultrasounds

Vaginal ultrasounds are officially the strangest thing ever,BUT the picture is much more clear

[sheylalayla-blog]

What did you want me to do?

Was i supposed to wait in the wings while you sat in your fragile marriage unwilling to leave a woman you didn't love for one that truly loved you? Was I supposed to stop participating in my marriage and stop wanting more children? Am I supposed to be ashamed that I'm pregnant because you FINALLY decided you don't want to be married to her? That you could possibly want me now that it's too late? What was I supposed to do? What did you WANT me to do? I'm sorry..I love you...but it's too late for us.

[sheylalayla-blog]

Living in White America

I haven’t watched the video of Alton Sterling ’s murder. Every post I see regarding it makes me feel physically ill. What is happening to our black community every day is not something that America can just keep shrugging off. The countless murders-most of which have been by law enforcement CAN NOT go unpunished. How is it that a white man can get a mere slap on the wrist for RAPE when a black man gets KILLED during a traffic stop for letting the police officer know that he had a registered firearm in the vehicle? How, as American’s , can we allow this to happen?! ALL LIVES MATTER! I’m not saying that any one life is more important than another, what I am saying is that as Americans we need to wake the fuck up to the shit that is happening in our country. We cannot continue to let crimes of this magnitude go unpunished. No one is above the law- except Hillary Clinton apparently, but that’s a whole nother rant- BLACK LIVES MATTER. People need to remember that that statement isn’t the black community disregarding the lives of other American’s. It’s simply us asking that you wake the fuck up and realize that every day more and more of us are being murdered and not recieving justice! How are we supposed to believe in America when America disregards us on a daily basis. Black lives matter is a fucking movement that America needs to get woke to because losing members of the black community to police brutality and failed court systems every other month is COMPLETELY unacceptable. I don’t care who you are; IF YOU CAN’T BE PART OF THE SOLUTION, PART OF THE MOVEMENT DO NOT LET YOURSELF BECOME A BIGGER PART OF THE PROBLEM.

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star birth in the Carina Nebula

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[sheylalayla-blog]

Dead. I just feel dead inside. Do you know how badly it hurts to put so much effort into something for someone only to have them not acknowledge it or you at all?

[sheylalayla-blog]

I put in so much effort today. I had planned to drop this off at his job but since job sites frequently change that didn't end up happening. I drove all the way to Humble and went to Domino's. They were closed. So I went to a playground with my daughter to wait. She had an accident. So we found a Target to buy backup pants, and then a Kroger because we were low on gas. Then we went back to Domino's. I have never been nervous about ordering a pizza. But I was today. I gave them your address and a drop off time. I put so much thought into getting you your favorite pizza. I stopped by your apartment too. I left Snapple's because I know you like those, and Skittles because that's what the people at your job call you. I left you a letter. This is admittedly the weirdest thing I have ever done and probably the craziest but I did it because I care. Because putting in an effort is cool. Because I want you not to hate me. Because it kills me inside.

[sheylalayla-blog]

When he's actually acting sweet and perfect for once.❤

[wnq-movies]

You’re not really an adult at all. You’re just a tall child holding a beer, having a conversation you don’t understand.

Dylan Moran (via wnq-movies)

[sheylalayla-blog]

I get this bubbly feeling inside when your name pops up. In my timeline, in my notifications bar,in my messenger app...just the thought of hanging out and enjoying your company makes me happy. The idea of YOU makes me happy.

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[sheylalayla-blog]

I need good weed and good conversation yet somehow when I try to pursue this I can't find anyone who wants to vibe with me.