Gentle Midnight Secrets

Bear witness to my soul

[shiftingmoon]

I miss the version of you that still loved me. The version that looked at me like I mattered. But now you belong to someone else. And you're never going to see this.

[shiftingmoon]

Umm...okay. Bye, I guess.

[shiftingmoon]

There's a picture

A picture of us at Disneyland. You're wearing that red mickey ear hat and a grey/beige sweater. The whole picture is drowned in an orange light. It haunts my thoughts. We looked so happy and full of hope. I can't find it and the details will eventually fade from my memory until it's just two ghosts on an orange background

[shiftingmoon]

It's already started to fade

[shiftingmoon]

You're no longer visible in this picture. Just me and the warm orange glow with the water behind me. I don't think of you much anymore if at all. When I do, it's just a very very distant memory. I hope you were able to work things out with your man, that you two are happily married now. I'm finally ready to truly move on from all this. I'm tired of being angry and pitying myself. I'm ready to give myself to someone new.

[shiftingmoon]

I think I'm addicted to making myself sad on purpose

[kosmogrl]

[kosmogrl]

same with music or tv shows/movies, don’t listen to or watch that EVER again

[shiftingmoon]

I had a dream Ivan told me you had committed suicide. I felt sad. I had a dream I killed you with my bare hands. I was full of anger. I haven't thought of you in a long while. Why are you still here? Go. Be happy somewhere else.

[shiftingmoon]

Fuck... not again

[anxietyproblem]

[myouiminart]

“There’s really no shortcut to forgetting someone. You just have to endure missing them everyday until you don’t anymore.”

— Unknown  (via quotemadness)

[just-shower-thoughts]

Being alone and feeling alone are two different things

[just-shower-thoughts]

The more depressed you get, the less you want help.

[just-shower-thoughts]

Being wanted is so much better than being needed

[shiftingmoon]

Imagine loving being single and longing to be in a relationship at the same time. Imagine not caring what the world thinks about your interests and wanting there to be someone that does. Imagine being bored of everyone around you and putting on a happy face. Imagine filling the void in your heart with celebrities millions of miles away that will never know of your existence or genuinely care. Imagine going to sleep nearly every night hoping that it's 1998 when you wake up. Imagine feeling like the waking world is one giant nightmare you can't wake up from. Imagine being comforted by the idea of never waking up again. Imagine having friends that care so much about you that they try their best to give you reasons to stay alive and have made plans for when you're sixty. Imagine having made vague plans to die once you turn sixty.

[saedii]

I’m like romantic horny

[resqectable]

“Trauma permanently changes us. This is the frightening truth about betrayal. You never really get over it. At best, you grieve and make some kind of peace with it. But a major life disruption leaves a new normal behind. There’s no going back to who you were before.”

— Unknown

[shiftingmoon]

Nights like these...

I just want to be held

[bilf]

okay