“What do you mean you want to break up?” you asked your boyfriend, Jaehwan. Almost letting go your tears but you didn’t want to cry, so you stayed strong keeping it all in.
“I’m sorry.” he said and paused “The feelings for you, the one that I had. They are gone.”
You just looked at him waiting if he got more to tell you. It took a while before he let out a sight and stirred with his straw into his Frappuccino. You took a sip of your Latte macchiato and placing the Starbucks cup back on its place at the table. You looked around as you waited for Jaehwan to continue.
There weren’t that many people today, there only were an old couple probably in the fifty or something. You wondered why they would be here since most of the time young people or business people came here. You looked away from the old couple, focusing on Jaehwan again when he still didn’t continued.
“Have you met someone else?” you asked, he just nodded “Do I know her?”
He stayed quiet, taking it as a yes. That you did know that girl he likes but he was probably too afraid to tell. Maybe he started having feelings for your best friend, you did introduced Jaehwan to her and they did get along very well.
“Is it Bambi?” you asked, saying your friend’s nickname. To be honest you never called her by her real name, and start doing it now would be weird since you had been friends for years. You had start calling her like that after you had find out she was a really big fan of the Disney movie Bambi. She had lots of stuff related to the little deer, so you thought that name would fit her perfectly.
“No it’s not her.” he said as he shook his head, showing a small smile just hearing your weird nickname for your friend.
“Then who it is?”
“You aren’t gonna get mad at me are you?”
“Don’t worry I won’t.”
“You remember that party I had a few weeks ago?” he said, you nodded “Well I kind of lost a bet that night. A bet I shouldn’t had made to begin with especially since most people were really drunk included myself.”
He took a sip of his drink before he continued.
"Some of the people there thought I was gay. I told them I wasn’t and that I had a girlfriend but they didn’t believed me, even when I showed them some pictures of the two of us. And after a while some dude named Hakyeon came with the idea that I only could proof it to them I wasn’t gay when I made out with another guy and tell them it was nothing after kiss.“
"So you kissed a guy and were technically cheating on me?”
“Yeah… I’m really sorry for that and I know I shouldn’t had listened to him to begin with. Anyways, all the guys there did rock, paper, scissors to decide who would make out with me and unfortunately Hongbin lost. So now I didn’t only had to kiss a guy but I had to kiss my best friend as well."
You just looked at him, as you took another slip of your drink. You kind of knew what he was about to tell you but you just let him continue.
"In the beginning it was kinda awkward for the both of us so the guys gave us some more soju trying to get us more lose and get us even more drunk then we already were. When I couldn’t think straight anymore because of the alcohol, I kissed him, he didn’t broke the kiss, he even kissed back. After that I don’t remember anything of that night, but the morning after I woke up in my friend’s room with a really bad hangover. As I slowly sat up I looked around the room seeing my and his clothes all spread around the floor including our underwear.” he said not looking you in the eyes
“So you did it with a guy?” you said in disbelieve
You might had expected him to turn out gay after he made out with Hongbin but you didn’t expect him to actually have sex with his best friend.
“So in the end all I have proofed is that I am gay…” he said with a soft voice. He stayed quiet not knowing how you would react. He just told you he has cheated on you and dumb you for a guy
“It’s okay.” you said, he looked up at you surprised he didn’t saw this coming. “It’s really sweet to know you would do anything to prove others that I’m your girlfriend. It’s just sad the whole situation turned out like this.” you said and smiled a little
“Aren’t you mad? I just told you, I’m gay and cheated on you. And you aren’t mad?”
“Well… I’m not mad because you found out you’re gay, I’m just mad, sad and disappointed about the whole cheating… it’s not like its great news to hear your boyfriend cheated on you and dumb you for another guy… I do feel empty right now even though I got those mixed feelings but I know that getting mad doesn’t solve anything. At least you see what you did wrong and there is just nothing I could do about it. What happened has happened and we can’t turn it back.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Don’t say you’re sorry.” you said placing your hand on his “I just need some time on my own now but when I moved on, I would love to be your best friend.”
“I would love that as well."
You just stayed strong but you knew that you will break down on you knees the moment you will be alone. The two of you took both your own cups with you and so you both walked off in another direction. He said he would go to Hongbin’s house, talking about moving in with him since he won’t be living with you in your shared apartment anymore. He also said he would pick up his stuff this weekend so you would have some time to yourself.
That weekend he had picked up his stuff and you had met Hongbin as well. Of course you still were sad about the whole situation but you couldn’t help it and feel happy for them. Some weeks later you met up with them at the Starbucks you and Jaehwan had broken up.
You stood in front of the entrance, feeling nervous as you looked through the window of the door. This would be the first time you would enter the Starbucks in weeks. Your phone beeped, it was a message from Jaehwan
‘Hey, where are you? You haven’t forgotten that we would meet up, have you?”
You didn’t answer the message and took a deep breath as you pushed the door open. You looked around as you walked in.
“(Y/N)!!” Jaehwan shouted, waving at you from a table that was almost fully hidden behind a wall.
You walked over to the table and took a seat a cross from them after you had taken off your coat.
“Do you want something to drink?” Jaehwan asked
“Yes, please.”
“The usual?” you nodded in response.
Jaehwan stood up from his seat, giving a quick kiss on Hongbin’s lips before going to the counter to order your drink. He used to kiss you before getting something for someone when to two of you were together but that was just history by now.
“I’m sorry for screwing up your relationship with Jaehwan.” Hongbin said after a while.
“It’s okay, sooner or later he would had find out anyway. It’s for the better.” you said and smiled
“You mean it?”
“Yeah I mean it, I’m just happy for the two of you.”
“Thank you.” he said and showed his charming dimpled smile.
“So, how did you realize your feelings for Jaehwan? I know he had realized it a few days after that party.” you said
“Actually I have liked him for a long time, but I never had the courage to tell him. Because first of all the two of you were in a relationship and secondly I was afraid I would lose him as a friend.” he said and took a small sip from his coffee. “You know the moment he kissed me made me feel happy but guilty as well, since the two of you were still dating. And the next morning he looked really shocked when the two of us woke up in the same bed. So I still didn’t said anything about my crush for him and waited for those feelings to go away but them a few days later he confessed to me. I told him I love him too but also that he first should break up with you and tell you the truth what had happened, before we would start dating and such. He really had a hard time with telling you the truth. He had struggled with how to tell you for days, asking me what and how to tell you.”
“Yeah, I can understand. It’s not something easily to say. I’m glad you helped him a little to tell me.”
The two of you talked some more until Jaehwan came back with your Latte macchiato.
“I’m sorry it took so long. Apparently it’s the first day of the barista and he didn’t knew how to make your drink and screw up so many times.” he said a little annoyed, placing the cup in front of you and then taking he seat next to Hongbin
“It’s okay.” you said and smiled
“So did I miss something?” he asked as he leaned against Hongbin, his head resting on his shoulder.
“Nothing much.” the other man answered
And so the three of you continued to talk until you all went back home, you were happy for them that they had found each other. But still you wondered if you would be able to find your true love.
