About me
Those who know me know that I like to make people laugh and be happy. thing you might or might not know. I suffered anxiety and add problem for 26 years, I am not a victim I just went through life with these, i was overweight, Face was disformed, got called out on it and very self-insecure, I thought everyone was normal and i felt like an alien, so i did the best thing I could and i locked myself in my house only coming out to work to help my mother pay the bills, around 26 i got tired and exercise and i am the me i am now because of this one thought. 26 I started to gained a little more brave and so i decided to start my sexual adventures, found out that i wasn't good at it, so i wanted to be better, and i thought myself, but while still recovering from the effects of my past years, starting take medication and therapy and now im a lot calmer, and comfortable with myself, and now i can focus which was the major problem with me, i was called out by a friend that i was like a chihuahua on crack, which is true, i was too nervous and afraid, but i was still exploring and finding out what i like, thou i hurt a couple on the way, i meant no harm, i shouldn't have said i wanted a relationship when at the time i didn't know what i wanted. anyways im a lot calmer and more focus, i lost my glasses so i cant see so just a little bit focus.
I like personality over looks, I am more inclined to be friends with someone who has a good personality, but if you look good that's a plus, no matter what the age is.
the reason why i am writing this is because there is a confusion about me, I am not uptight, the reason why i didn't approach anyone was because i wanted to see if they were brave enough to approach me first, and no one ever did.
I don't like to be used to hurt anyone in any form or way
I don't want any relationship anymore I want to be free and unfettered. i just want friends who will call me up and say hey lets go to bar or the movies.
I am a peaceful person if i detect any negativity you might as well just pushed me out the door.
I will leave you alone if you don't want me or anything to do with me
In the past i have use marijuana after sexual adventure, i was new to marijuana and i could not smoke, instead of making me calmer it did the opposite, it made me aware of all the tangles and tenseness inside of my body that i have to untangle slowly over time, and breathing problems which i fix with meditation. and i was unfamiliar with the cleaning process which i now know.
I won't be on the apps anymore, i just said all this because i hope if you do see me in real life, that if you do want to be my friend, sexually or non sexually , just know that I am here, you just have to approach me.
I don't enjoy being talked behind my back, things that i have said and did in private was shared without my consent, and i apologize to who was hurt in the process.
I like to learn, i am not in competition with anyone, nor do i think I am better than anyone. i am a newly verse bottom who wanted to have fun and explore coming out of my room. I meant no harm,
I ran around like a child without a leash and i apologize.
I learn my lesson; my type is masculinity. you don't have to have tough or try to impress me, it mostly likely will have the opposite effect, just be yourself.
ty for those who reads this and understand me..