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[shinystarlitdreams]

Moving Accounts

Hey everyone. You may have noticed that I've been a lot less active on social media lately.  And that I deleted everything on this blog.

Long story short for those who don't want to read a big thing, I'm moving accounts on basically everywhere. Of course, hit me up if you want to ask where I want to be.

Now the long story:

Certain events have been having negative effects on my mental health. So bad that things that were getting better are now getting worse. Anxiety, insomnia, depression, especially dissociation.

Now usually I would stick it out.

Usually, I wouldn't care enough to leave.

But this blog is connected to and follows so many people that post things that act as constant reminders. Things that I would rather not be part of either ever or until I can put this behind me in the far, far future. Not only that but certain people keep finding this blog and sending me... Unsavory things.

I've been accused, lost friends, and am constantly held by anxiety that it’s going to come back and hurt me more. That more people are going to leave or hate me. That literally no-one can be trusted. I’ve gotten hate, lost friends, lost the ability to trust people I should be able too. Do you have any idea how stressful that is? Being accused of being a danger. Having your support system ripped out from under you. Having to deal with repercussions of false accusations. Not being able to fully trust the people you love most?

It's painful, it hurts, and honestly, staying here is not going to help me heal. I know people make mistakes, but they're not entitled to my forgiveness. Not now. Maybe not ever.

There a lot of you I appreciate that I got to know.

As for some advice: Know that if you ever need to heal, always take your chance to do it. Or it will end up affecting you horribly in the long run. Love you all, and again if anyone of my friends wants to know where I’ve gone, feel free to ask.