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why does my future depend on me i dont like this

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sometimes it feels like i did die and now im rotting 

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heavy from the hurt inside my veins

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the elephant in the room

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people can see me if they want to, or they can't, i have always wondered what its like to walk in a crowd, at peace with yourself and in step with the herd, what it feels like to have no one turn around and stare at you or expect you to do something stupid or crazy

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im too young to feel so old 

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im a walking corpse

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i feel stuck, i dont know what to do, im living aimlessly, im overwhelmed by everything, it's disgusting

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when you think about the objects in the sky, such as the stars, dont the issues in our lives seem so unimportant?

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because were all going to die someday, i just want to be prepared, thats all

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oh what a bad day, lets make it worse 

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I love your blog, you’re so real

im really sad

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how do i stop it 

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no one can pull me out from this suffocating feeling of loneliness

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where do you live?

in the hell in my head

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i make incredible promises to make people love me, and even if they love me, they are disappointed when i dont deliver

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i used to be a good person, i will never be a good person again