Shukita Week Day 4: (First Time/Nightmares)
Combining prompts again ^3^
I mistook this for day 3 oml, but I skipped it because I had a hard time and also late submission because procrastination and body pains are fun
Trigger warning: Mentions of abuse, mentions of suicide, self destructive behavior, self harm
Even after freeing himself from Madarame’s shackles, Yusuke’s past still haunts him to this day. Although they were blurry fragments that were very distant, those pieces are like broken glass. They would pierce the boy’s heart and cause him to shed tears out of burning rage and waves of dolor. Never have felt care and the absence of his parents lead him to search what would keep on destroying him. It is what he thinks he deserves.
After he was convinced to leave the disaster he was in, he sits alone in the dark, with a sharp cutter, against the moonlit window. He was contemplating to be eliminated, but he thought, not now. He carved someone’s name on his arm. The stinging red lines bleed the name which his heart screams his name.
“No. I don’t think I deserve him.”
Even after saying yes to Ren’s persuits, he still thought he didn’t deserve to be treated well. Looking at the scar of Ren’s name, his thoughts began to conflict. Ever since being in the Phantom Thieves of Hearts, he felt freedom, care, love and happiness. The idea of being in this is foreign to him. Still, he needs to get used to it. But then remebering the cuts he carved, a thought comes to scare him.
“What if… They find out? I’m sure, I ,might… Be resented for this. A scar bearing his name… What… What would they do…?”
One day, while looking at his scars, Ren enters the attic after running for errands. Yusuke hides his arm out of fear. Ren’s eyes widens out of shock to Yusuke’s sudden reaction.
“Yusuke?” Ren calls out Yusuke.
“I-I-It’s nothing! I swear!”
“That doesn’t seem like nothing.” The cat, mentions.
“Well, I’m not bringing anything aside from my wallet.”
“Is that so?”
“Morgana, stop it.” Quips Ren.
“But I sense something-” Futaba enters interrupting Morgana.
“Hey, Ren? Can I take Mona home with me?” Morgana’s jaw drops. Ren nods and glances at Yusuke.
“Thaaaanks~!”
“Wait, wait, wait! Help! Waiiiiit!” Mona wails as he’s taken away by Futaba.
Ren sighs after that. He looks at Yusuke with a curious look. Yusuke is still in silence, not knowing what to do.
“Is there something wrong?”
“Well… No.” He responds silently. He looks down with a gloomly look on his face.
“You’re hiding your arm.”
“It’s nothing!” Yusuke babbles. “I swear!”
“If it’s nothing,” Says Ren. “May I see?” Yusuke’s eyes are getting watery. “I won’t get mad.”
“You won’t show it to anyone?”
“Promise.”
He shows his forearm to him. Ren gently runs his fingertips across his name. The rough and red lines bring shivers down his spine. Gingerly placing his arm on his bed, Ren then rolls his sleeve. Yusuke’s eyes widen to the sight of red lines on Ren’s forearm, carved to his name.
“I thought I was the only one.” Yusuke says. “I’d never thought you’d also do this.” Looking at the scars and running through his fingers, their roughness brings shivers and has let the floodgates open. His tears stings Ren’s wounds. “But why?”
“They’ve given me conditions.” Ren croaks.
“Your parents?” He nods.
“They’re distant.”
“I see.”
Yusuke shuffles to let Ren sit next to him. They’ve been elaborating their backgrounds for moments.
“We do really have similarities.” He lays his head on Ren’s shoulder. “All these months and I’ve feared for something whimsical. I thought the opposite would happen. But…”
“Hm?”
“I might be overthinking too much that it ended up affecting me.” Yusuke admits. “I’ve even had dreams of what could be the worst to come. They’re so many that… I don’t remember them.”
“Yusuke…” Ren mutters. He lifts his head away to gaze at him.
“The worst of the worst among them that I can remember… Is losing you… You… Who have been so good to me.” They held each other in a warming embrace.
“Ren… I love you…” He held him close into a kiss. Very vehemently pressing his lips against Ren’s, not minding that Ren is unbuttoning his shirt. It’s only a matter of time that the two would be spending the heated night together.
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